poeticdesires

for those who don't know...
i called up DC101 this past monday and tuesday and spoke to elliot and the class about my experience with alex.
alex is currently in jail waiting for his trial which will be on September 12th. i find this hilarious because it is election day and i previously signed up to be an election judge (ie i will be busy from 6am until 8pm. unless something freakish happens, even tho i've thought about going, i can't).

life is getting better. i'm crying a lot less. it's getting easier for me to sleep at night. i'm forcing myself to eat (especially since i was in physical pain from not eating today).

i really want to move out of my place. my roommate is a passive aggressive asshole. and i don't want to be here when alex gets out.
we'll see what happens.

i went through my entire room and closet and cleaned for hours yesterday and today. i separated what is his from what is mine. i chose clothes i wanted to donate. i threw away a lot of things i didn't need. there is so much more room. it is amazing. best of all, i'm finding things during my cleaning that make me think i'm doing the right thing. 1- a small little book called the key to life. it has lovely little thoughts and sayings that really speak to my situation now. 2- a gift envelope with $30 in it. the envelope read "this is for a new start for you." i don't know how old that envelope is, but the money could not have come at a better time. 3- old pictures i had long since forgot about that i took while in college. they reminded me of a time alex was never a part of, a time in which i was happy.

so i guess it is the little things right now that are getting me through. and the love of my family and friends ain't bad either.

<3
~poetic

ps. i never did explain why alex was arrested. he failed to register as a sex offender when he got out of jail. oh yeah, he met me about two weeks after he had gotten out of jail, for the same charge. his crime is statutory rape. he likes younger girls, dates younger girls, has sex with younger girls, and then gets charges slapped on him by their parents. what's funny is all he has to do is register. if he had registered, he could have gone on living with and lying to me. but instead he was stupid. and now he's in jail.