poeticdesires

i can be easily hurt. i think i'm hurt the hardest, tho, when someone doesn't realize they r hurting me.
this guy i sorta liked at my job made me cry tonight. he made me cry hard. he was drunk, n didn't realize how he sounded, and i was hurt and started crying. since then, everyone with him has been trying to calm me down and make me feel better. but the problem is, they can't, because they all r also part of the problem. i've never really felt accepted anywhere. i've always felt 2nd class to those around me. so, when this kid hurt me tonight, it was just the straw that broke the camel's back.
all these different reasons had me crying. first i was crying cause i thought i hurt him. then i was crying because i felt mocked. but lastly, i was crying because it seems like no matter what i do my heart always gets stomped on. i know that isn't true, but that's how it feels. it seems like every guy i've ever showed an interest in has hurt me, whether intentionally or not. n so i rant, for far too long, in this update of mine.
i really hope the rest of my week turns out better than how is has begun.

[edited because crying makes it hard to type well.]