So here I sit in my detox bed, staring out the rehab window...
Wow, I didn't think it would ever get to this point, where I actually had to go to rehab. So, I kinda stole my phone so I could keep in contact with a few family members, mostly my daughter and mom. It is really weird how different it feels to be sober, been completely sober 15 days, got here on the 4th of Sept. I like the sobriety, makes me feel clean, not that I felt dirty while I was a complete drunkard, but the repeated alcohol poisoning incidents made me feel it was time to change things up a bit. Just hard being in a room all day other than going to group and AA meetings. I talked to a good friend last night, most of my unit thinks I'm a shit bag, cause I let the alcohol take over, wow, appreciate the support! Fucking losers, they took me off the deployment roster so that's another slap in the face. I think I will be okay, it gives me time to travel a little bit. I wanna go to Canada and possibly PCS closer to home so I can be around my daughter. I miss her, I miss her, she's about the only good that has come out of my crazy life, love her to death.
Well, gotta go to group, yall be eazy, will check in later if they don't find my phone. Fraise I haven't forgotten about you, still working on your interview questions. If anyone isn't busy, check out her questionaire, its worth the time to speak your point of view to help her out.
Poet Out
Wow, I didn't think it would ever get to this point, where I actually had to go to rehab. So, I kinda stole my phone so I could keep in contact with a few family members, mostly my daughter and mom. It is really weird how different it feels to be sober, been completely sober 15 days, got here on the 4th of Sept. I like the sobriety, makes me feel clean, not that I felt dirty while I was a complete drunkard, but the repeated alcohol poisoning incidents made me feel it was time to change things up a bit. Just hard being in a room all day other than going to group and AA meetings. I talked to a good friend last night, most of my unit thinks I'm a shit bag, cause I let the alcohol take over, wow, appreciate the support! Fucking losers, they took me off the deployment roster so that's another slap in the face. I think I will be okay, it gives me time to travel a little bit. I wanna go to Canada and possibly PCS closer to home so I can be around my daughter. I miss her, I miss her, she's about the only good that has come out of my crazy life, love her to death.
Well, gotta go to group, yall be eazy, will check in later if they don't find my phone. Fraise I haven't forgotten about you, still working on your interview questions. If anyone isn't busy, check out her questionaire, its worth the time to speak your point of view to help her out.
Poet Out
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You know - the air is tense and we are all becoming something unlike we've ever known but perhaps dreamed. It is not and has not been an easy transition for most of us, we have to fall apart before we can be put together. You made a conscious decision to do you, sober! Do not let the outside noise interfere with that journey because as much as escape seems like the best option, looking at yourself in the mirror and becoming the person you want to be ....Well for me at least it is the only option and the only reason to bear the trials of human existence. Ask the questions and surely the answers will seek you!