So my back has decided to play up again. It has a wonderful array of problems that delight and intrigue my physiotherapist.
But I have a fairly high threshold for pain combined with either extreme laziness or a fear of doctors (haven't worked out which one it is) so I usually wait a long time to head for help. For the past two weeks I've been getting severe headaches (I never get headaches so actually they may not be that severe, but it's all relative) that I attempt to ignore for the most part. It's hard to ignore when you're trying to sleep though so I've finally broken down and am taking muscle relaxants before bed. I hate drugs, so that also meant I had to phone the physio for an apt.
But my reason for writing that is to point out something weird I've noticed. When I'm in pain, I'm otherwise incredibly focused, settled, and generally alright with the universe. It's like the pain becomes something that eclipses all my other problems. It's kind of nice actually. If it wasn't for severe sleep deprivation I'd just leave it like this.
But I have a fairly high threshold for pain combined with either extreme laziness or a fear of doctors (haven't worked out which one it is) so I usually wait a long time to head for help. For the past two weeks I've been getting severe headaches (I never get headaches so actually they may not be that severe, but it's all relative) that I attempt to ignore for the most part. It's hard to ignore when you're trying to sleep though so I've finally broken down and am taking muscle relaxants before bed. I hate drugs, so that also meant I had to phone the physio for an apt.
But my reason for writing that is to point out something weird I've noticed. When I'm in pain, I'm otherwise incredibly focused, settled, and generally alright with the universe. It's like the pain becomes something that eclipses all my other problems. It's kind of nice actually. If it wasn't for severe sleep deprivation I'd just leave it like this.
The games, the games! Make them go away!!!!!!!!