plissken77

I saw this movie the other day(hey big shock me seeing a movie) called Equilibrium. It's about a future where people are given a daily pill that supresses all feelings. And their is a police force that regulates it and all this cool 1984 shit happens and Matrix like action. Oh yeah and Christian Bale is in it.

But it got me thinking. We have all these mood altering drugs. And pain relieving(my favorite). Prozac, Demmoral, Vicoden. And many other drugs that I can't spell or dont even know about.

Is there a drug that stops the pain we feel in our hearts? Pop a pill and we dont feel it.

The real question is do we want a drug that does that? Or is it actually good for us to have experienced that pain? Is it a part of growing?

In a way I say yes. If things go the way it should, if you are hurt you should know not to put yourself in a situation that will cause you pain.. yeah that works right. Ha!

LIFE IS PAIN, my brother always says that.

I've been feeling an ache in my heart latley. I know we should never dwell on the past, but Im fucking human I cant help it.

I said earlier in the week that I was lonely. I got some nice comments and some recomendations on some lubricants to help the situation. Ha. HA HAHAHHAHAHAH!!

But. BUT.

I realized something. Well two things.
1) I dont like feeling sorry for myself , or people to feel sorry for me.
2) There are so many more people with some serious things going on in their life that makes my little sob story look like the Wizard of Fucking OZ.

So me aching heart will heal. And I extend it to those people who need it. My family, My Friends.

My heart goes out to the people of New Orleans. The Poeple of Florida. My heart goes out to my friends in the middle east, and the soldiers I dont know. May they all come home safe.

My heart goes out to my Grandmother, who at 90 is holding on strong.

My heart goes out to a special freind in Illinois. She is going through a very rough time, One I couldnt imagine. And she went out of her way to make me smile tonight. I love you little princess. You are my angel. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

And last but certainly not least.

My heart goes out to all of you, those who read this(and made it this far) and those who didnt. This SG comunity is a special thing. And I love my girl Poison for bringing me here.

I am out. My Steve Mcqueen marathon continues. He is one COOL mother fucker.

-plissken-