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We have our lil monkey boy back now, I'am so happy to hold him and kiss him and let him know I love him face to face, and at the momment he is having fun at the Y , while I look for a job, I actually had the balls to ask for my old job back, still waiting to here back about that I freaked out about this whole situation, I was worried about making the right choices, because not only am I making these descions for myself , but for my son too, so I wondered if going back to everything we were use too( over indulged, overly cautious, very protected , a bit spoiled , alot of tension etc. ) leave all our things behind and move away from everyone we knew, or live in a area, were we had to work hard, not quite as safe as we were use too, a clean slate, with someone we both love, a chance to have our own thoughts and minds. I almost went back, twice , to the old way, it seemed like the easiest way , but it was not the right way for us mentally, the threat of my mother and I fighting again , was still there, it was not going to be a good situation for my son to be in, me niether, so I must find that strong part I know I have in me, and be the mom I know I can be, be the best partner I know I could be, and work together with my wonderful girlfriend and to go on and Just Do It!!!!
We are both scared, but the three of us as a team , I know we can be strong.
The Gay and Lesbian center next door does not have a LGBT family group, my girlfriend suggested that I should lead one, I have never done that before ,but it may be a good way to make new friends , especiall for my monkey . So this is what I have been going through lately, I know with right mind frame good things will come and my choices will be more firm and planned out. I have to remember how to breath
I also want to tell my girlfriend Thank You for being there even when I was being diffcult, thanks for believing that we can do it together even when I wasn't sure, you are the best, I appreciate everything you do for us, and I promise to give my 1000% back :}