pixiebelle

Stuff
Boys are just so very, very confusing.
Received a text message late afternoon full of apologies and strangeness and stuff. Being Miss super laid back I took the mick a little bit and he didn't feel so bad. Then he phones me last night about half eleven and we chat about everything for over an hour. Seems like a lot of crossed wires, his inability to make himself understood and my really hurtful experiences with younger men in the past took us to the rather crap point we were at Wednesday morning. He even apologised for his behaviour on Tuesday night and swore he'll never smoke in front of me again 'cos he really hated the way he treated me. Hmm, p*ssed up rantings me thought but he did sound very sincere. So after a lot of chat and apologies and harsh home truths and such we have decided to keep hanging out but for him to stop stressing that I want to be in a relationship NOW!! And to realise that I like to take life as it comes. If we like each other then it's cool to hang out. Doesn't mean I want to marry him tomorrow because of that reason. Silly boy!! We have decided to go back to old fashioned courting. Spend some time together, on our own, with other people, have a little kiss and a cuddle on occassion and let things develop, or not, at their normal, meant to be, pace. I quite like the idea of that. Haven't been like that with someone in ages and we both agree things would probably be very different if we hadn't slept together so quickly. Watch this space I guess. He sent me a text message first thing this morning which discounted the p*ssed up rantings theory and lent me more towards the sincere line of thinking.
We're off out tomorrow night to some mate of his fancy dress party. The theme is Australia. Yeah, thats an easy one!! Thinking along the lines of Priscilla. Sure I could do a man in drag quite well.
Then Sunday I am off to York for a whole glorious week. Can't wait. The job hunting bit is not going to be so easy. But I have almost had a relevation about my future up there. Just got to see if my folks go for it. Really want to study nursing. And everyone can cut the wolf whistles now!! I don't think I'd cut a good shape in them nurses outfits. Be a good laugh though! But seriously, I'd really enjoy being a Community Nurse for a learning disability community team. Keep my experience but not feel like a financial gatekeeper like in my current job. And I could eventually specialise in Autism and Aspergers. My almost obsessionally fascinated with client group. Fingers crossed my folks see my vision and can help me out.
Be good all you lovely people.
And thank you so much for everyone's loveliness through all my warblings about my love life. Your thoughts and support and objections are all highly valued.
Snogs for you all!!!