pixidust

its raining and i am soooo sick of it, just a little more sun for me before i go? please?

i had and ok 4th just rested and worked n'stuff wish i was back in chicago to see ian and matt and even taylor. im ready for school again classes and learning i feel like no matter the amont of reading i do here i cant feel happy. i love my family but im just in a new part of my life and they arent a major roll in it anymore. i sat in my dads chair with him today and i thought he was gonna cry. ive been on my own for a really long time well 5 yrs and being home seems so strange even if its just to visit, i guess since i live outta state its harder for them to deal with. i dont know what the big deal is they have my brother and hes much more time consuming then i was.... well i hope my flight is quick and i survie the train ride into the city.

bye till chicago!

love you all