pistolito

Wow It's been six months since I've logged on. After that last post a lot has changed. I wish I could go back to the way thing were then. I was getting ready to seperate from the miitary and begin my terminal leave.Shcedules were being made and plans thought through. I had planed to move in with my grandparents since my grandfather was recovering from surgery and battling cancer. I would visit them as much as I could since I had been stationed back in the states. I took up a second job at the base gas station to cover the 400 miles trip between us. I was through working my military job but still working at the gas station. Aug. 27th, thats when I got the call. My grandfather hadn't gotten out of his bed for a couple of days. Mom says I need to come home. I headed out the next mornning. I didn't make it. I get the call that he's passed while on the highway. I was soo dam pissed at myself for not getting there sooner. I never lost somebody that close to me, he was the closest thing I had to a father. I was looking forward to staying with him and helping him get better. But nothing goes as planned as I later still find out. After he is buried, I went back to my place ,packed my things up then headed back home. I still moved in with my grandma and started looking for a job. It took a month before somebody hired me, then another month to get paid. I was hurtin' for money bad. I was told by friends and family that I would get hired quick as shit siince I was prior military. You see, the main reason I got out of the military was to make more money working in the oil field. I did for about four months, working 70+ hrs a week, with every other weekend off. I was getting some serious pay though. I was working so much that I let my SG account go. Had no social life what-so-ever. What little time I had after work was for sleep. But the dream job ended Jan 31,2009. I got laid-off. Fucking economy had to go to shit. Alot of people lost their jobs over-here. I was lucky to get a job two weeks later but it's not enough to cover the bills. I'm about to let go of a vehicle so I can have money to eat and cover rent. I was about to turn off my internet, but somebody reactivated my SG account for me soo I guess I'll keep it one as long as I can. I'm making so little right now that I'm actually considering joining the Army. That way I don't have to worry making enough to have my own place. My grandma moved in with my mom by the way, like three months ago. She was getting really depressed. She couldn't be in this house anylonger without my grandfather. She's actually helping me now with the rent, which is sad. I should be able to handle it by myself, but I just can't right now. So, hopefully in a month or so I'll be back in the service and working on a degree in something to do with aviation. I really want to become a pilot. Hopefully the economy will get better then I just might get back out ...or not. You just never know how thing will go.