Today is a sad day. 
Remember a few posts back, I had my annual exam and the doctor said everything looked great? Well... my tests came back abnormal. I'm headed in for a second time, for a colposcopy, so that they can take more tissue from my cervix to test. For any of you women out there who are familiar with this, you know how I feel. I feel kinda dirty. I feel like I'm damaged goods, and that there's something wrong with my vagina. Being brought up strict Catholic leads a lot of negative energy to a girl's vagina. You're literally taught to fear it, and that it's ugly and inappropriate. Maybe this is just a result of 20 something years of negatively thinking about my vagina. I'm hoping I haven't ruined my chances of having children someday, or that my boyfriend will still want to have sex with me, after all of this... surgeries and cervix tissue removing... ugh. It can leave you feeling less womanly. My vagina is my womanhood. In it, I find strength.
So here's what I'm doing to help myself:
1.) I'm going to see my energy healer. I hope that he will guide me back into my powers of manifestation and healing. I know I can heal my vagina, if I manifest it so.
2.) I'm trying to educate every woman I can about the dangers of HPV and other std's that are VERY common. Please please please get checked. Some day, you will want to have children, and when you go into a gynocologist and they check you and say you have cervical cancer and that you are now barren, you will wish you would have gotten checked in the first place.
3.) In all reality, I cannot afford to pay for the treatments and procedures that I am going to have to go through for the next few months. So, I am calling on the resourses of my friends and those who know I would do the same for them in their time of need. I'm using the "red dress" as a symbol of HPV, and HPV awareness. It had some bids, but now I'm really pushing it as a way to raise money for my vagina. ....
HELP SAVE PISTOLITA'S VAGINA!!!!!!
.... there are many ways to help, if you wish.... I can sell you photographs, trinkets, articles of clothing, the red dress,... whatever.... Please help if you can. I'm going to try to save every penny I can so that I can pay off my medical bills that are already existing before I get the rush of new ones for my cervical cancer treatment. If all you can donate is an honest prayer, I'll take what I can get. Maybe if we all focus positive energy on my vagina, it will heal and get better by itself. Anything you have to offer me is more than appreciated....
Even if you read this, and tell ONE person to get checked, or you yourself get checked, I consider that a win.
Please be safe, and take care of your bodies!!!
Donate to Pistolita's Cervical Cancer Fund!!!
<3 Pistolita
Remember a few posts back, I had my annual exam and the doctor said everything looked great? Well... my tests came back abnormal. I'm headed in for a second time, for a colposcopy, so that they can take more tissue from my cervix to test. For any of you women out there who are familiar with this, you know how I feel. I feel kinda dirty. I feel like I'm damaged goods, and that there's something wrong with my vagina. Being brought up strict Catholic leads a lot of negative energy to a girl's vagina. You're literally taught to fear it, and that it's ugly and inappropriate. Maybe this is just a result of 20 something years of negatively thinking about my vagina. I'm hoping I haven't ruined my chances of having children someday, or that my boyfriend will still want to have sex with me, after all of this... surgeries and cervix tissue removing... ugh. It can leave you feeling less womanly. My vagina is my womanhood. In it, I find strength.
So here's what I'm doing to help myself:
1.) I'm going to see my energy healer. I hope that he will guide me back into my powers of manifestation and healing. I know I can heal my vagina, if I manifest it so.
2.) I'm trying to educate every woman I can about the dangers of HPV and other std's that are VERY common. Please please please get checked. Some day, you will want to have children, and when you go into a gynocologist and they check you and say you have cervical cancer and that you are now barren, you will wish you would have gotten checked in the first place.
3.) In all reality, I cannot afford to pay for the treatments and procedures that I am going to have to go through for the next few months. So, I am calling on the resourses of my friends and those who know I would do the same for them in their time of need. I'm using the "red dress" as a symbol of HPV, and HPV awareness. It had some bids, but now I'm really pushing it as a way to raise money for my vagina. ....
HELP SAVE PISTOLITA'S VAGINA!!!!!!
.... there are many ways to help, if you wish.... I can sell you photographs, trinkets, articles of clothing, the red dress,... whatever.... Please help if you can. I'm going to try to save every penny I can so that I can pay off my medical bills that are already existing before I get the rush of new ones for my cervical cancer treatment. If all you can donate is an honest prayer, I'll take what I can get. Maybe if we all focus positive energy on my vagina, it will heal and get better by itself. Anything you have to offer me is more than appreciated....
Even if you read this, and tell ONE person to get checked, or you yourself get checked, I consider that a win.
Please be safe, and take care of your bodies!!!
Donate to Pistolita's Cervical Cancer Fund!!!
<3 Pistolita
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the FDA just approved a vaccine for HPV and now they're trying to decide at what age girls should be encouraged to get it.