CONFESSIONS OF A MIND AT 4AM:
Insomnia again. For some reason it's 4 am & I'm WIDE awake. I feel like I'm on the verge of a life changing epifony but for some reason-I'm having a hard time transitioning....In laymens terms-I'm trying to teach myself to turn the other cheek. I don't always have to be the winner & say the last & best word...sometimes-even though you could "win", it's best to just walk away...That's what they say & I feel that if I could truly realize this philosophy, then I would be a much happier person. So here I am at 4 am-tryin to let go of stupid shiot & turn the other cheek...eventhough I could counter a move towards someone that hurt me with double the damning power that they hit me with...ugh-why is it such a difficult lesson to learn? Anyone have any ideas on how to "let things go"? Any self talk ideas or things that help y'all to be the better person? My tool right now is repeating the phrase in my head "it's not worth the effort". But some little voice in my head keeps arguing. That is my confession=this is something I struggle with. The true question: If you consistently turn the other cheek, will the opposing person/side win & because you turned the other cheek, keep winning? Or is there some ultimate purpose served by this, other than the perception of not stooping to the other's level?...but in reality...in the REAL world-the only real difference is that the other came out ahead & you behind?
Insomnia again. For some reason it's 4 am & I'm WIDE awake. I feel like I'm on the verge of a life changing epifony but for some reason-I'm having a hard time transitioning....In laymens terms-I'm trying to teach myself to turn the other cheek. I don't always have to be the winner & say the last & best word...sometimes-even though you could "win", it's best to just walk away...That's what they say & I feel that if I could truly realize this philosophy, then I would be a much happier person. So here I am at 4 am-tryin to let go of stupid shiot & turn the other cheek...eventhough I could counter a move towards someone that hurt me with double the damning power that they hit me with...ugh-why is it such a difficult lesson to learn? Anyone have any ideas on how to "let things go"? Any self talk ideas or things that help y'all to be the better person? My tool right now is repeating the phrase in my head "it's not worth the effort". But some little voice in my head keeps arguing. That is my confession=this is something I struggle with. The true question: If you consistently turn the other cheek, will the opposing person/side win & because you turned the other cheek, keep winning? Or is there some ultimate purpose served by this, other than the perception of not stooping to the other's level?...but in reality...in the REAL world-the only real difference is that the other came out ahead & you behind?
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jenn
i don't like to thing in terms of "turning the other cheek". it's a little too judeo christian for my taste and reeks of submissive subserviance.
there is something in learning to walk away though. i had to learn to let things go, and it was basically that i am striving to have a life as free from stress as possible. it seems more often than not, the "antagonistic half" of the problem doesn't dwell on it as much as i would, and i'd be all stress, and in that sense i was always losing.
there is a difference between "walking" and " being walked on".
...speaking in an obtuse, generalized kinda way...