pirubix

i believe insanity consumes my every waking moment. i think my dreams and nightmares follow me out of my sleep, and thats why i can never remember them. in the illusion i call my personal reality i am both god and the devil, i praise myself even as i damn myself. complete my thoughts are not. i may have a micro black hole in my...
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i find it hilarious that people think just cause im nice and laid back that i am a push over. umm, hate to tell you, im german, we dont know the meaning of the word defeat, or how to be pushed around. you push me, i kick you, see how well that worked? being nice has nothing to do with being a push over

so, who ever gave me 3 free months, much appreciated! i cant believe its been 4 years since i have been on this. wow, how time flies, but i remain the same! and the most horrible part, the job im at now is exactly the same as the one i quit right before dropping my account! same puter programs and everything. funny stuff. alright, its...
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Wow, its been to long since my last entry. ummmm, hmm, lets see here, nothings really new, still jobless, waitin for my unemployment to start. umm, damn, my life is sad, lol. ate some acid the other night, and all i have to say about that is, damn. trippin by myself has lost all the thrill from when i was younger. sigh* sadly i think...
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wow, 2 months, no entries, well i suppose thats not so uncommon for me. well now, lets see whats new, ummm, didn move to florida, surprise surprise, might move in a few months, but thats all in debate. my hair is getting recokulously long, its down to my shoulders. ummmmm, started talking to a whole bunch of my ol friends from hs, all thanks to...
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lalalalala, so it been decided, im out of here, goint oflordia, soemtime in febuary, woohoo!

why am i so sad? why is life so depressing? my breath is but a mere speck of dust in the void tha is time, *sigh. oh well, yougotta deal with wha you got delt. self pity is horrible, but im the only person i got. sure i have friends and family who acted concerned at times, when it doesnt interfere with anything theyre doing,...
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damn, its been like 2 months since ive been in here, hmmmm, lets thinks, ummmmmm, nothin really happened, but then again nothing really eva happens to me. its been good to be home, though now i might go back down to cali for another month or so, but this time itll be onyl me goin down, an theyre gonn ahve to get me a car,...
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So here we are, another glorious day. glorious my arse, today sucked, i was late to work, i was poisoned on lunch, the only good thing is that i got to go home early, though not really home but my psuedo home. besides that everything is pretty much the same from yesterday, same ol boring california, geez i cant way to get home, itll be...
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WOw, i think this is the longest i went w/o leaving a journal entry, meh, i guess thas wha happens when you don pay yer bill and you don really have a computer at the time to go pay it. So lets think here, whats new???? Umm well im still in cali, unfortunately, i was supposed to be home on the 8th but there keeping...
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OI, OI, OI, bababababababa, booyaka bitches, lol, ya i don kno where that came from, oh well, so anywho, what is up. found out friday im leaving on the 28 for cali, YIPEE!!! i jus cant wait to go to get it ova with and come back home and get laid off, lol. besides that, not really shit for shit, stillpretty much the same ol...
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wow, its been like month since ive writng anything here, crazy. hmmm, what to tell what to tell, is there anything to tell, ummm....wow my life is sad. well, im leaving for cali in liek a month, thas pretty cool, gonna be about there for about 2 months, its gonna be excellent. my work is renting me out my own apt, my own rental care,...
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