speed makes me happy to be alive. in other news, adrian is coming in exactly 4 days ! i am beyond stoked.
we remind me of me and adam when we first started hanging out . . . you wish you could bring yourself to hook up with them but after the first few times you hang out, you don't even want it to happen. a few days ago, i just realized how un-involved i've been in my own life. . . i just watch it go by, sometimes it carries some emotion back to me, but mostly i just watch with a slight tinge of amusement and very little understanding. i e-mailed and talked to adrian today. . .mostly because everyone i talked to thought that it was highly improbable that someone would come and visit you unless they wanted to fuck you. we talk about sex, but only because it is a part of our lives, i think at this point we have both loved someone deeply enough that there is no way either could go back to just fucking someone that we barely know. which is funny in retrospect, because that's how i met that boy. i feel so lucky to know the majority of people in my life, especially adam and adrian. being on the same wavelengh as someone is priceless, these people will be your best friends, the ones that you will know until they or you die. these people have my undying loyalty which says very little and at the same time says everything : family.
we remind me of me and adam when we first started hanging out . . . you wish you could bring yourself to hook up with them but after the first few times you hang out, you don't even want it to happen. a few days ago, i just realized how un-involved i've been in my own life. . . i just watch it go by, sometimes it carries some emotion back to me, but mostly i just watch with a slight tinge of amusement and very little understanding. i e-mailed and talked to adrian today. . .mostly because everyone i talked to thought that it was highly improbable that someone would come and visit you unless they wanted to fuck you. we talk about sex, but only because it is a part of our lives, i think at this point we have both loved someone deeply enough that there is no way either could go back to just fucking someone that we barely know. which is funny in retrospect, because that's how i met that boy. i feel so lucky to know the majority of people in my life, especially adam and adrian. being on the same wavelengh as someone is priceless, these people will be your best friends, the ones that you will know until they or you die. these people have my undying loyalty which says very little and at the same time says everything : family.