Hello world. Not much to report. Things are going--- Not badly, but there is certainly room for improvement. The relationship with The Girl is going very well. I despise the fact that getting to spend time with her is such a rarity, but that should be changing fairly soon. When it does all the world will know as I'll be screaming for joy at the top of my lungs whilst doing cartwheels naked in the front yard. There's even been serious talk of moving in together and possibly relocating to someplace more agreeable to our dispositions.
The other major part of my life is in agonizing limbo. The divorce trial is set for the 1st of March. If you read this, please send all the good thoughts and mojo you can my way. I'm so ready for all of this to be done.I'm tired of having it hanging over my head. Before that happens however, there will be a paternity test to make sure that the little person I've been raising for the last two years is actually my flesh and blood. As much as I hate myself for doubting, I have to know for sure. If she's not mine I can't raise her. I'm just not strong enough to look at that little face every day for the rest of my life and know that I was betrayed by someone I gave my heart to. Fucked up? Maybe, but I can't stand not knowing anymore. It eats at me in the quiet moments when I'm laying in bed.
So that's what's up with me. How are you?
The other major part of my life is in agonizing limbo. The divorce trial is set for the 1st of March. If you read this, please send all the good thoughts and mojo you can my way. I'm so ready for all of this to be done.I'm tired of having it hanging over my head. Before that happens however, there will be a paternity test to make sure that the little person I've been raising for the last two years is actually my flesh and blood. As much as I hate myself for doubting, I have to know for sure. If she's not mine I can't raise her. I'm just not strong enough to look at that little face every day for the rest of my life and know that I was betrayed by someone I gave my heart to. Fucked up? Maybe, but I can't stand not knowing anymore. It eats at me in the quiet moments when I'm laying in bed.
So that's what's up with me. How are you?