pinupsandguns

I feel like I've lost. I think I've lost more than I've won. I have a good friend and every-time something horrid happens he tells me "you win some, you lose some" but I always feel like I'm loosing some. He told me that a million times when I was struggling to get over my ex...he also told me "You can't turn a hoe into a housewife" which made me think? "Oh my, am I a hoe? I'll certainly never be a good house wife"
But the comment was directed to my ex, not to me.
He is always full of good advice, he always makes perfect sense...he's not much older but a million times wiser than me. He would have driven me to see her if I wanted to...and I did but I never asked because some part deep in me didn't want to see her. That's that..i feel constant failure when it comes to obtaining a mixer of happiness and romance. I don't mix with love and I certainly don't mix well with women.
Sometimes everything becomes a blur and I want nothing more than to run into submission and set myself up for the finale great humiliation...but I haven't become that desperate yet. I don't know if I ever will. So, the moral of the story is...
you win some, you lose some....

Lulu

p.s i have the flu