Sooooo
sorry If I write a lot Im sure you dont wanna read every post I make you dont have to. I just have to get these things out... instead of running around in my head BUT thank you to whomever reads these.. thats awesome.
So. Im adopted. A closed adoption no medical records. My mothers name is whited out. My name was Baby Girl Davis on this one paper i read. Where that name came from I dont know.
I just talked to my mom and she swears up and down those documents are sealed and never to be opened and that I was never named so i have no traces.
Where did that Davis name come from? I was born in Greensburg, Pa. i know nothing else. i contacted a person. Basically all I can do is plead my story. The chance of my getting my records is basically impossible.
I just dont understand. I dont. In like maybe 10 years I want to have kids. I want to be able to tell them what is in their history. I want to tell them more than. oh hey you have some "white and black in you" WTF??!!!
on the paper I remember seeing "white" then they crossed that out and put "bi-racial"
I guess Im just hurting from this. As i grow older... im trying to cope with my past the best way possible... Its just REALLY hard sometimes...
- side note-
My Bf is moving at the end of next month. Im going to be a mess till i can move down there. I know I have to be strong for me and US. I can do this.. Its going to be hard I may not see him for 3 months straight. I know my heart lies with him... and finally living and being with him is the biggest prize I can get. The wait will be worth it.
---- So if I seem like "blah" just... a lot is going through my head...
I want to start tackling my past troubles one by one...
2-3 down.. some more to go... I thank you guys for being there...
sorry If I write a lot Im sure you dont wanna read every post I make you dont have to. I just have to get these things out... instead of running around in my head BUT thank you to whomever reads these.. thats awesome.
So. Im adopted. A closed adoption no medical records. My mothers name is whited out. My name was Baby Girl Davis on this one paper i read. Where that name came from I dont know.
I just talked to my mom and she swears up and down those documents are sealed and never to be opened and that I was never named so i have no traces.
Where did that Davis name come from? I was born in Greensburg, Pa. i know nothing else. i contacted a person. Basically all I can do is plead my story. The chance of my getting my records is basically impossible.
I just dont understand. I dont. In like maybe 10 years I want to have kids. I want to be able to tell them what is in their history. I want to tell them more than. oh hey you have some "white and black in you" WTF??!!!
on the paper I remember seeing "white" then they crossed that out and put "bi-racial"
I guess Im just hurting from this. As i grow older... im trying to cope with my past the best way possible... Its just REALLY hard sometimes...
- side note-
My Bf is moving at the end of next month. Im going to be a mess till i can move down there. I know I have to be strong for me and US. I can do this.. Its going to be hard I may not see him for 3 months straight. I know my heart lies with him... and finally living and being with him is the biggest prize I can get. The wait will be worth it.
---- So if I seem like "blah" just... a lot is going through my head...
I want to start tackling my past troubles one by one...
2-3 down.. some more to go... I thank you guys for being there...
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scotty:
I know!!!!! 
frolic:
heeey i'm adopted, too! and the fucked part is that it was an open adoption but i still don't know shit about my birthparents. they never cared to fill my family in on anything.