Today is the best day ever.
Not for the usual reasons for hyperbole..winning the lottery, finding long lost friends..
..but because I feel like myself again.
I've been in this strange funk for a week..two weeks..where I've just felt *off*. I've said stupid shit, I've done stupid shit, and I've probably left everyone who knows me (in person, at least) with the impression that I'm a petulant , needy and whiny woman.
"Needy" is a word I've been pondering a lot, lately, as it is a word that the man I've been seeing has used in describing many women he's met. It's a negative word.
But sometimes I feel needy! I've come closer to the conclusion, these past days of funkdom, that "having some needs" is not the same as "being needy". It's an important distinction, and I do admit to having some needs.
But that's something I should talk about with him, now, isn't it?
Dummy (me) just hoping that this new person can read my mind.
wtf??
As I'm still rather shy (would prefer to be brazen hussy), it is sooo much easier to write out my thoughts and compose myself before talking to someone in person, particularly this person who gets my heart rate up anyway.
Not for the usual reasons for hyperbole..winning the lottery, finding long lost friends..
..but because I feel like myself again.
I've been in this strange funk for a week..two weeks..where I've just felt *off*. I've said stupid shit, I've done stupid shit, and I've probably left everyone who knows me (in person, at least) with the impression that I'm a petulant , needy and whiny woman.
"Needy" is a word I've been pondering a lot, lately, as it is a word that the man I've been seeing has used in describing many women he's met. It's a negative word.
But sometimes I feel needy! I've come closer to the conclusion, these past days of funkdom, that "having some needs" is not the same as "being needy". It's an important distinction, and I do admit to having some needs.
But that's something I should talk about with him, now, isn't it?
Dummy (me) just hoping that this new person can read my mind.
wtf??
As I'm still rather shy (would prefer to be brazen hussy), it is sooo much easier to write out my thoughts and compose myself before talking to someone in person, particularly this person who gets my heart rate up anyway.
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I'm glad your funk only lasted weeks.. mine went on for years. I'd gotten so caught up and lost myself so easily.. it's taken me years to try and get to my core again.
Very important distinction there between having needs and being needy. I have a problem of not bringing mine up before it's too late... or sometimes even when it's too soon.