pinkily

Thank goodness I'm off for the next 3 days....Unfortunately Tony has to work the next 2, his only day off this week is Wednesday. He needs the money, but that means that I can't see him, cause the wifey is back in town, and I have avoided his house since that one lovely day last week. He can't come over to my place after work cause of his dog, he can't leave Hank outside for like 2 days straight (that's basically what would happen if he didn't go home and take care of Hank.) So I gonna be lonely. Oh well, guess I'll get stuff done.

I try really hard to just be happy, and think about how happy he makes me when we're together. However, lately, I haven't gotten to spend much time with him, due to work and the wife situation. Sometimes I can't help but feel second-best. I'm so torn between emotions these days. I'm so paranoid that he'll talk to her when I'm not around, and they'll "work stuff out" and he'll go back to her---cause I'm only second-best. Or cause I'm just "the other woman". He assures me thats not how it is....but I can't help but see it like that sometimes.

Grrr.

My head hurts.