Monday Dec 19, 2005

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sigh.......

Its not really that I want to be with him right now. Its that I can't get over him.

I have to admit--I am young, naive, dumb, you name it. I was too trusting. I fell too hard. I gave him way too much of myself. And I am paying the price now.

I have been on this earth for 23 years and 9 months. I have been single for 23 years and 3 months. One would think I would be used to it by now.

Apparently I'm not.

I would give anything to keep that feeling of being loved, and being important to someone.
punknitemike:
your first love is usually the one you fall the hardest...so your feelings are not unusual! just give it some time, maybe you'll figure out what or who ya want? it does sound like you wish things could work out though, but is that even possible? is it hard when ya see him at work? i still think we should hang out sometime, just friends!!!
kaun:
I read a few sections of your journal. Keep your head up. Sounds to me like you're afraid of being alone more than anything. Hope that doesn't offend you much, seeing as how I don't know you all that well yet. The phrase "plenty of fish in the sea" couldn't apply any better. I know it's clique, but it's true.

You know what makes me feel better when I'm down? A nice big bag of sour patch kids and a 20oz mt dew to wash em down. Mmmm... I can feel my teeth rotting outta my head as I think about it. <3

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