Its done and over with. FINALLY.
Friday at work, he didn't talk to me. AND he pissed me off. It would have been 2 weeks on Saturday since we had talked. And I could have maybe been halfway ok with that. But when he was downright RUDE to me......no, FUCK him. I was walking down the hallway, towards the bathroom, and he comes out of the bathroom. He sees me, and gets a drink from the water fountain.....then he proceeds to COMPLETELY IGNORE ME while he talks to the guy walking next to me. Doesn't even make EYE CONTACT WITH ME. So I'm pissed.
I walk out of the bathroom, still steaming....I steam for a few more minutes, then walk directly across the building to him. I say "I have to say this, cause otherwise its just going to eat at me..." and he says ok. I say, "What the HELL, I'm not even worth fucking eye contact anymore? Not Hi, Hello, How ya been, Fuck you, Kiss my ass, NOTHING?" And he says "Thats not what it is...." and I say yeah whatever, and walk away. We didn't talk anymore that day.
We leave work, I go home, still pissed. I decide I'm done with it. I sent him 2 texts---1 saying "Fuck you, I'm done with you, live in misery with her for the rest of your life. Have a whole brood of kids with her so your locked in forever" and the next saying "Fuck you for ever involoving me in your stupid life"
I go to work that night............guess who I'm scheduled to work with? Yup. Ya knew it would happen.
He comes in to work, sees me standing there ready to work with him--laughs, and says "what?" And I say "WHAT?" all full of attitude. I avoid conversations with him, other than asking him if he found the texts I sent. He said no, he's no longer using his cell, and its gonna be turned off in a few days. Whatever. Then, I go to help him stack some paper down on skids, and he jokingly says "Don't drop it" and I turned to him and said "FUCK YOU!" He said he was kidding, the girl working with him the night before kept dropping things, and I said "Yeah, and since I'm obviously a complete dumbass, I'll probably do the same thing, right? Whatever, I'm not even gonna help you now."
About an hour after that, we weren't really talking, but he kept trying to joke around with me, and finally I got pissed and said "What, do you think we're just "cool" now? Yesterday, you can't even look at me, and all of a sudden today we're just cool? NO it doesn't work like that. We are NOT cool, so quit acting like we are. You're only talking to me by chance, not by choice." And he just gave a frustrated whatever and shut up. The only other talking I did with him all night was to ask him questions about what to do, reguarding the work we were doing. To hell with conversating with that fucker.
After work, I asked him if he wanted to know what the texts said, and he said sure. So I told him exactly what they said. He basically had no response. He stood there and let me tell him that I can't stand him anymore, I have no more attraction to him, all I have for him now is anger, because he claims that he doesn't want to be with her, yet he kisses her ass and walks all over me in the process. I'm tired of getting MY fucking feelings hurt day after day to deal with his sorry ass. I can do better, and I deserve better, and I'm done with him. He agreeed, that I can do better, and then said he was worthless, which of course was a guilt trip to me, and it pissed me off. I said he wasn't worthless, the beginning of the relationship was awesome, but when he decided to fuck me over to keep her happy, after I treated him 50x better than she EVER had, that's when I knew I deserved better. And he agreed that I treated him better than anyone else. I also asked why he didn't look at me in the hallway and why he's been ignoring me lately---he said he was trying to "avoid confrontation." I told him there wouldn't have BEEN any fucking confrontation if he had just been civil to me and treated me like a fucking human being.
Whatever. He will never leave her. He'll live in misery with her, because he has no other option now. I'm fucking done with him, and I hate him for every fucking sleepless night and tear I've cried over him. But I haven't cried since I sent him those texts, except when my sister made me feel like shit and called me a psycho for telling him to fuck off. But what the hell does she know anyway, right? Fuck her too, while I'm at it. Like I said, all I have is anger.
And I have options.
Lots of options.
Boys all OVER the place
No relationships for a looooong ass time.
AND NEVER EVER EVER another stupid married muther fucker.
Friday at work, he didn't talk to me. AND he pissed me off. It would have been 2 weeks on Saturday since we had talked. And I could have maybe been halfway ok with that. But when he was downright RUDE to me......no, FUCK him. I was walking down the hallway, towards the bathroom, and he comes out of the bathroom. He sees me, and gets a drink from the water fountain.....then he proceeds to COMPLETELY IGNORE ME while he talks to the guy walking next to me. Doesn't even make EYE CONTACT WITH ME. So I'm pissed.
I walk out of the bathroom, still steaming....I steam for a few more minutes, then walk directly across the building to him. I say "I have to say this, cause otherwise its just going to eat at me..." and he says ok. I say, "What the HELL, I'm not even worth fucking eye contact anymore? Not Hi, Hello, How ya been, Fuck you, Kiss my ass, NOTHING?" And he says "Thats not what it is...." and I say yeah whatever, and walk away. We didn't talk anymore that day.
We leave work, I go home, still pissed. I decide I'm done with it. I sent him 2 texts---1 saying "Fuck you, I'm done with you, live in misery with her for the rest of your life. Have a whole brood of kids with her so your locked in forever" and the next saying "Fuck you for ever involoving me in your stupid life"
I go to work that night............guess who I'm scheduled to work with? Yup. Ya knew it would happen.
He comes in to work, sees me standing there ready to work with him--laughs, and says "what?" And I say "WHAT?" all full of attitude. I avoid conversations with him, other than asking him if he found the texts I sent. He said no, he's no longer using his cell, and its gonna be turned off in a few days. Whatever. Then, I go to help him stack some paper down on skids, and he jokingly says "Don't drop it" and I turned to him and said "FUCK YOU!" He said he was kidding, the girl working with him the night before kept dropping things, and I said "Yeah, and since I'm obviously a complete dumbass, I'll probably do the same thing, right? Whatever, I'm not even gonna help you now."
About an hour after that, we weren't really talking, but he kept trying to joke around with me, and finally I got pissed and said "What, do you think we're just "cool" now? Yesterday, you can't even look at me, and all of a sudden today we're just cool? NO it doesn't work like that. We are NOT cool, so quit acting like we are. You're only talking to me by chance, not by choice." And he just gave a frustrated whatever and shut up. The only other talking I did with him all night was to ask him questions about what to do, reguarding the work we were doing. To hell with conversating with that fucker.
After work, I asked him if he wanted to know what the texts said, and he said sure. So I told him exactly what they said. He basically had no response. He stood there and let me tell him that I can't stand him anymore, I have no more attraction to him, all I have for him now is anger, because he claims that he doesn't want to be with her, yet he kisses her ass and walks all over me in the process. I'm tired of getting MY fucking feelings hurt day after day to deal with his sorry ass. I can do better, and I deserve better, and I'm done with him. He agreeed, that I can do better, and then said he was worthless, which of course was a guilt trip to me, and it pissed me off. I said he wasn't worthless, the beginning of the relationship was awesome, but when he decided to fuck me over to keep her happy, after I treated him 50x better than she EVER had, that's when I knew I deserved better. And he agreed that I treated him better than anyone else. I also asked why he didn't look at me in the hallway and why he's been ignoring me lately---he said he was trying to "avoid confrontation." I told him there wouldn't have BEEN any fucking confrontation if he had just been civil to me and treated me like a fucking human being.
Whatever. He will never leave her. He'll live in misery with her, because he has no other option now. I'm fucking done with him, and I hate him for every fucking sleepless night and tear I've cried over him. But I haven't cried since I sent him those texts, except when my sister made me feel like shit and called me a psycho for telling him to fuck off. But what the hell does she know anyway, right? Fuck her too, while I'm at it. Like I said, all I have is anger.
And I have options.
Lots of options.
Boys all OVER the place
No relationships for a looooong ass time.
AND NEVER EVER EVER another stupid married muther fucker.
email me here: mjdurian@yahoo.com