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This week has been incredible. I got a new job (yes, another... the nannying thing didn't work out as I'd hoped.) But this new new job pays better than either of the others, is Monday through Friday, and is at the most incredible childcare facility I've ever seen. The kids get swimming lessons starting when they're TINY (about 18 months old...
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chefdaddy:
Glad you got a new job. That last one sounded hard core even if you like kids. Stand up sounds like a blast, that was always a dream of the wife's.  glad things are going well. 
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I am job hunting.

I like my current primary job, but I really miss being around the little ones. This by no means is to suggest that I want my OWN little ones any time soon, but I seriously miss toddlers.

Studying in the social sciences is difficult for an introvert. I hate feeling like I'm bothering people when I need to do assignments...
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stcyr:
hey kid . . .


hope it's a great one for you!

littlejohn22:
have a great Birthday,, good luck with job hunting
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How To Be Happy

Are you almost disgusted with life, little man?
I'll tell you a wonderful trick.
That will bring you contentment if anything can,
Do something for somebody, quick!

Are you awfully tired with play, little girl?
Wearied, discouraged, and sick-
I'll tell you the loveliest game in the world
Do something for somebody, quick!

Though it rains, like the rain...
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bakuto:
Hahh...! I'm glad that things are looking good for you in that department. What a fun lyrical submission.
bakuto:
Thank you. Probably one of the better things said about my writings.

Ah, Zimmerman... honestly, I think he should have just stayed in the car. A lesson I learned myself recently.

A "Croque-Monsieur?" Damn, those French are always one step ahead of me. Here I thought it was something I came up with.

I'm not so sure that I'm staying anymore, though it was considerably reassuring to know that I will be missed. Thank you.
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My new kitty is still sick. He is getting better, but he has thrush in his ears and a really hard to treat upper respiratory infection.

However, both kitties are absolutely wonderful. They're getting along, and Gumdrop (sick kitty) was an angel with the vet. She commented on how calm and good-natured he is, saying that normally when she does as much to a...
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xbradx:
Good luck with both the play and your student teaching(not that you'll need it in either case smile )!
king_mob:
Ohai!
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I'm PineappleFroot, I'm 23, and today was the first time I've shown up at work with a hickey.

I don't think I'll ever live it down.
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xbradx:
Thanks! It's going very well so far. Took my first load down last night. The neighborhood is fantastic, and the house is great. smile
estrada:
There's a first time for everything!
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Some updates:

I lost my full-time job that I adored because of a coworker who I hate. She got fired too, but that's of little consolation.

I lost my cat, who died suddenly- one day she was eating and drinking and playing, the next morning she was dead on my dining room floor.

I am trying dating again. That's kind of mediocre. I...
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king_mob:
Lies.
ekka:
<3 You are the best and I really appreciate how much you've been around this past week and a half for me despite what you are going through, and I hope you know you can vent and stress and cry with me too and it won't detract from what I'm feeling or need or whatever.
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My life is in flux.
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king_mob:
I find keeping them all the same color helps camouflage the encroaching crazy-cat-person-ness
ekka:
Guess we should get some flux capacitors
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Well, I am totally single now.

He is damaged from a previous relationship.

In most ways, I'd really prefer hearing that he thought we are fundamentally incompatible. That would be more concrete and easier to accept.

As it is, I feel like it's not over, even though it is, and will likely be torturing myself with "what if"s until he starts dating...
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xbradx:
I'm sorry to hear that.
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I fear losing my identity.

Scratch that.

I fear not having an identity.

I have spent my adult life in relationships. I am not proud of that. I mean, technically I am not "in a relationship" at the moment, but I'm "hanging out" with someone and that is going to count for this purpose.

I think I have strong aversions, rather than strong desires...
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mydogfarted:
I like to have a little interest in something my partner is interested in. This way, when they get excited about something related to it, I can have a minimum understanding of why they are excited - or at least not be bored out of my mind when it comes to talking about/doing it. Do I get sucked in to it? Occasionally.

I'm tired of hiding my flaws. I find it's far too destructive to me when they come out later.
chefdaddy:
You have a lot of the same flaws and insecurities as my wife. The more I know about you the more I think about that. We both hate to be wrong but she is more apt to be right. She hid a lot of her flaws from me for a long time partially because she was worried I might skate if I knew and partially because I wouldn't have let it in any way because I was blinded by new love. People say that love is blind but really new love is blind. Old love sees it all and sticks around in spite of everything. If you are concerned with a lack of diversity in your interests then what is so unnerving about adopting some new interests you could share with someone. Over time I think the wife and I have adopted some of each others interest which is good because we spend a shitload of time together but there are still plenty of interest we don't share which we partake in when we are apart. Sometimes we suffer through some things for each other. That is part of being in a relationship. Adjustments and compromises are how its done. While it I good to see the gray area in the big picture you have to let yourself have some personal gray areas. There is very little in the world that is truly black and white even if you are right. Haha. I on the other hand prefer to wear my flaws right out in the open and you can take me on leave me. I only start adjusting me for someone when I get to know them and care what they think. That is probably not any more healthy an attitude to have.
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After some reflection, I've come to the conclusion that I am more like a pineapple than a kiwi. You need to fight past the bristles and spines for me to be sweet. And even then I can be a little sour sometimes.
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chefdaddy:
I guess you are a little more work now but well worth the effort.
estrada:
Pineapples are fun to open up because of the challenges!
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I feel really prepared for March.

I got a LOT done at work on Friday which should make this month easier. I got a lot of my documentation set up, lesson plans are done until the second week of April, and I just generally feel kind of confident. Of course, I'd feel better about work if we weren't under sequestration... I don't...
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stcyr:
hope it stays solid, & well, & the very best of luck to you.
But,
as you brought it up, and as it remains one o' my very favorites . . .


smile

stcyr:
He was . . . deeply, and painfully flawed, rather brilliant, depressed, loving, aloof, selfish and self absorbed yet incredibly generous and helpful.
He was a shitty person, many times.
He was a good father, most times. And he always tried.
He was a living, breathing contradiction.
In short, he was human.

Thank you, though, for asking.
I've been wrestling with these thoughts, and how to truly describe him, and my feelings for him, all day.