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I always been that fat girl in school, The one that nobody are into,with great grades ( but that was never enough to my family) and i'm greatful for that.

My personality are so strong today, mainly because of my judgemental family.

Always been a black sheep, and it helped me to understand that i'm not too bad. Helped me to know me and see that i'm not a bad person because of my piercings, tattoos, the way i talk (with transparency) or even my style.

So many years of judgemental speaks (until now) and today i'm thankful for that. This made me learn how to defend myself and love me more. I'm who i'm now! With all my flaws, beauty, strenght and empowerment. Guys can mess with me now, but i'm not that silly girl, nobody needs to have pity.

Pity its not a good feeling, only drowns u. Never raise u.

Talking about men, thats another messy thing in my life. I never had a good relationship with men, always abused, or feeling used, never feeling loved. I passed through so many awful situations, reapeting again and again. I'm so skeptical about men and relationships.

Joining all these things, i know that i'm strong enough to deal with any shit! Abuses, disrespect, bully or prejudice. Thanks to all the bad things that i have to deal.

Talking about an good thing that helped me: Suicide Girls.

I can say that even been a newbie hopeful, i'm feeling proud of myself!

Been fully naked, in photos its a fetish to me. And be part of this place where we can do this, without the hate or disrespect, its like a safe place, its like my new safe place. Its a place when you can be admired. I see love even if i'm fat, or too much exotic, too much skinny. I'm not the fat girl in school anymore. I'm comfy with myself and i can see men with another perspective, and i'm thankful for all guys i met here.

Maybe i'm never going to please my family, and always be a looser. But in my world i'm queen of myself.

Thank u for reading this. (and sorry about the english)

Xo