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I have been in an odd writing mood lately. I keep starting poems and then deleting them or start writing my thoughts down and then deleting them. It seems that I have become overly emotional lately. I guess there have been so many changes and so many things out of my control at once. Its hard to feel stable when almost everything seems to be moving even when you want to stay still.
I think Im getting a grip on things but I need to relax. Haha that seems funny to me because Ive always been kind of a neurotic or uptight person. I worry a lot about things. I guess it is my Jewish nature. But oddly Im always fairly mellow. Dont ask me how thats possible but I do it. I guess Ive always been good at balancing the different feelings. Even though Ive been very emotional you couldnt tell unless youre a certain few people that got to see or hear or experience my outbursts.
You people that got that experience haha sorry. Im better now. Im happier now. I have a few more things to work out but once those are done I think Ill be the same person I was 3 months ago. I think its this whole school thing and not knowing whats happening with med school. Too much uncertainty too much ambiguity.
Im still very much in love with someone and she knows who she is. I think about her all the time and she knows that. Ive noticed that Ive slid into one of those phases where Im doing all those stupid things that scared guys do when they think they lost someone they love. Obsessing, worrying, overreacting, being intense not being themselves heh it took me awhile but Im seeing my behaviors and feelings for what they are (stupidity).
Ive started to work out again. Well Ive started doing pushups and sit-ups again. Trying to get to a point where I can do 100 of each again. I used to be in shape and then I got lazy need to stop that.
Right now Im back in Dallas for Turkey Day. There are 3 European girls at my house my Irish roommate was going to come but he decided to go to Mission, Texas instead why you ask? Haha lord only knows. Some part of me wanted to go with him but that got overruled by logic and wanting to see my family. The damn rednecks grow on you.
Nothing really going on other than that have 3 major projects I should be working on and a few tests coming up and less than a month of school left. Weeeeee
Heh
I have been in an odd writing mood lately. I keep starting poems and then deleting them or start writing my thoughts down and then deleting them. It seems that I have become overly emotional lately. I guess there have been so many changes and so many things out of my control at once. Its hard to feel stable when almost everything seems to be moving even when you want to stay still.
I think Im getting a grip on things but I need to relax. Haha that seems funny to me because Ive always been kind of a neurotic or uptight person. I worry a lot about things. I guess it is my Jewish nature. But oddly Im always fairly mellow. Dont ask me how thats possible but I do it. I guess Ive always been good at balancing the different feelings. Even though Ive been very emotional you couldnt tell unless youre a certain few people that got to see or hear or experience my outbursts.
You people that got that experience haha sorry. Im better now. Im happier now. I have a few more things to work out but once those are done I think Ill be the same person I was 3 months ago. I think its this whole school thing and not knowing whats happening with med school. Too much uncertainty too much ambiguity.
Im still very much in love with someone and she knows who she is. I think about her all the time and she knows that. Ive noticed that Ive slid into one of those phases where Im doing all those stupid things that scared guys do when they think they lost someone they love. Obsessing, worrying, overreacting, being intense not being themselves heh it took me awhile but Im seeing my behaviors and feelings for what they are (stupidity).
Ive started to work out again. Well Ive started doing pushups and sit-ups again. Trying to get to a point where I can do 100 of each again. I used to be in shape and then I got lazy need to stop that.
Right now Im back in Dallas for Turkey Day. There are 3 European girls at my house my Irish roommate was going to come but he decided to go to Mission, Texas instead why you ask? Haha lord only knows. Some part of me wanted to go with him but that got overruled by logic and wanting to see my family. The damn rednecks grow on you.
Nothing really going on other than that have 3 major projects I should be working on and a few tests coming up and less than a month of school left. Weeeeee
Heh
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it was the first step in getting rid of you all.