pilkington

"The Widow"

Dead man, were you ever alive or was I just a seed buried deep inside some woman you wed right before you crawled out of her bed and crept down the hall? Did you think of me? Did you even for a second hesitate when you tore away? It's just something I'd like to know, though I'd still love you if you told me that you just walked away. Oh my God, what a world you love! Men bury their sons, and without thought, just walk away. And my mother's heart breaks like the water inside of her. And my mother's heart breaks like the water inside of her. Dead man, is it being high that makes you alive? It makes you leave the high. Three boys and a wife in '89. As the track marks inch their way up your arm my mother taught my brothers and I not to call you "Daddy," but to call you "Father". But I believe there is something here that we'll learn to embrace. 'Cause I can't help but love you. No, I can't help but love you even with a heart that breaks like the promises that you made. Like the promises that you made. The promises that you made. 'Cause I can't help but love you. My God, what a world you love...

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I am ready to breathe.

Thank you to the Boddhisattvas out there. You know who you are.