I just got more rejected than i really ever have been. The girl i am in love with doesnt even want to see me at all. It is really complicated. I just been cleaning alot. Which isnt me at all. But it seems to keep me sane. I think i might party hard tonight. Excessive drinking and similar things. i am getting my nose pierced next week. That will be fun. I really cant wait for that. But thats about all i am looking forward to. 
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thanks