pigletx69

So here is the drama for the day....
Last nite the ex and I had a long conversation on MSN. He told me all the reasons why he has been upset lately and he told me about why he thought we shouldn't be together. Apparently lately I havn't been paying enough attention to him, I've been really negative towards him and it seemed like I didn't care anymore. Well....that's not exactly true. But I did see some of his points. So fine...I got a little upset, cried a bit more then I thought that was the end of that. Well today, he sends me a text message while I'm work asking me if I would consider getting together with him later. I thought this was odd because he said he wanted to talk about things, yet I thought we had discussed everything last nite. So I asked him to tell me the exact reasons why he wanted to see me(as I didn't want it to be some sort of Pity Party where he just wanted to see me to make sure that I was okay or whatever). So, what does he tell me? That he NOW realizes that he made a huge mistake and didn't mean anything that he said and that he wanted to know if I would give him another chance. I was SO shocked. I mean, who does that? That's just playing with someone's feelings there. It just isn't fair. So fine. I tell him to come meet me on my lunch so that we can talk. So, I get into his car and we started to discuss the issue. Everyone at work was worried that I was just going to get back tegether with him and not think twice about it. But I stood my ground. I told him that he had some good valid reasons for why we should not be together and if they were bothersome enough for him to break up with me over then obviously they were not just tiny little problems that were going to easily go away. I told him that I didn't understand how he was SO sure last night about what he wanted and how he felt this relationship was and yet today he was willing to put all those problems aside and try and get back together. I told him that we shouldn't have to change who we are(he is really quiet and reserved and I am a blunt and upfront sorta person) just to make the other happy. It's not fair to either of us to try and change each other nor is it fair to ourselves to feel we need to change another person just to make ourselves happy. I said that I think he wanted to get back together for all the wrong reasons. I think he just missed "us" and didn't think about all the problems we'd been having. So, needless to say, I was truthful and honest about the whole thing and he ended up realizing that it would be better off for us to stay apart. I really am proud of myself. In the past, I probably would have taken the easy route out. I would have chosen the path that seemed the easiet and that hurt the least amount of people instead of doing what I truly thought was right. I stood my ground and I really am proud of myself because in the end I think we will both be better off. I still want to stay friends with him though because he was a major part of my life and was there for me during alot of rough times. So, hopefully that dramatic section of my life is complete.
On a lighter note, Tricky and I got to hang out tonite. We just went shopping, hung out at Chapters and then went out to dinner. I had a wonderful time and I'm so glad that he's around. I know I've said it before but I truly do not know where I would be right now if I hadn't of met him when I did. He is a great guy and I really am one lucky little girl to have met him