Another wonderful day.....Ha! Yeah right. Apparently I only write in here when something awful happens. The ex came by to drop off all my stuff tonite. I thought that maybe we could have sat around and talked about things a little bit but I was mistaken. He came in, put my stuff on the floor, asked random weird questions, then gave me the lamest hug ever and left. I felt so hurt. I mean, it's one thing to break up with someone but then to not even give them the decensy of some sort of closure. So I picked up my stuff, stumbled up the stairs then threw myself on my bed and cried. How can someone go from "loving" you one day to not even talking to you the next? So after crying hysterically for about 5 minutes i had worked myself up so much that I ended up throwing up. Terrific eh?!? I just don't know how to feel about this whole situation. People have been saying the usual "You're better off without him" and "His loss, not yours" and in a way I sort of agree with them. I mean it was no secret that him and I were having problems.....it's just....well I guess it's the fact that HE dumped ME. It really freakin hurt. I used to have an issue in relationships where whenever it got rough and we started to argue either I would leave or they would leave me. But this time, I wanted to stop that.....face up to my fears....and work through things like a real person would. And this is what happens. Makes me a little hesitant to ever want to try that again. I'm just so utterly lost. I'm usually one who is quick to bounce back after tough situations....but this time it's different. I cry myself to sleep every night, I catch myself replaying the whole break up scene in my head, and I'm often asking myself "Why did this happen?" I just don't know how to handle this. I have been lucky enough to have 2 really good friends try and help me through this and I am so grateful that they were there for me when no one else was. And to that I want to say Thank You to Tricky and AndyWarlock for being so kind and sweet to me and giving me loving words of advice. Where would I be without you two? 
So anyways, enough about that I guess. I'll try to start updating more often, with some happy comments instead of sad and depressing events of my sad little life.
So anyways, enough about that I guess. I'll try to start updating more often, with some happy comments instead of sad and depressing events of my sad little life.
and if you like Friends just hum the theme tune to yourself and think of us eh?