What can I say about today? It has been one crazy and truthful day....
For those of you who didn't know....I'm engaged.....or should I say WAS engaged. This fellow and I have been having problems since day 1. Major communication issues there. We've broken up before over this and I guess I thought it would be different the second time around, but neither of us tried to make things work. So, I had a long and interesting conversation with my mom about it. She actually took my side this time ( I think it's the first time EVER) and she told me to do whatever I needed to do to make me better. So I went and had a talk with the fiance. After about 2 minutes, he told me that he feels it wasn't worth trying to work through again. I knew it was coming......but it still hurt. I guess it was cuz I was the only one trying in our relationship.....he didn't talk much about anything really....so when he finally DID say something....and it was how he's been feeling this way for awhile....it was shocking.....yet I guess in a weird way it was a relief. At least I know I wasn't imagining this whole mess. So needless to say.....I'm back into the single world.....Again.
The one good thing about today is that I was finally truthful with my parents. I finally told them that I smoke. It was hard for me to finally be ready enough to tell them but I did it anyways. I figured my mom wouldnt get mad at me cuz she used to smoke when she was my age....and she didn't get mad. She wants me to quit obviously but she understands. So, today has been enlightening almost. I feel happy that I got everything off my chest about everything. My brother's fiance tried to take me out for a "girl's day out" to try and take my mind off things. We ended up just going shopping and then going for a coffee. It was alright....shopping is usually a good distraction for me. So ya....That's that.
Now I just need to find myself a good distraction for tonite. I've had a few offers from old friends wanting me to go to a bar but.....I dunno.....being around couples might be kinda awkward so we'll see....
For those of you who didn't know....I'm engaged.....or should I say WAS engaged. This fellow and I have been having problems since day 1. Major communication issues there. We've broken up before over this and I guess I thought it would be different the second time around, but neither of us tried to make things work. So, I had a long and interesting conversation with my mom about it. She actually took my side this time ( I think it's the first time EVER) and she told me to do whatever I needed to do to make me better. So I went and had a talk with the fiance. After about 2 minutes, he told me that he feels it wasn't worth trying to work through again. I knew it was coming......but it still hurt. I guess it was cuz I was the only one trying in our relationship.....he didn't talk much about anything really....so when he finally DID say something....and it was how he's been feeling this way for awhile....it was shocking.....yet I guess in a weird way it was a relief. At least I know I wasn't imagining this whole mess. So needless to say.....I'm back into the single world.....Again.
The one good thing about today is that I was finally truthful with my parents. I finally told them that I smoke. It was hard for me to finally be ready enough to tell them but I did it anyways. I figured my mom wouldnt get mad at me cuz she used to smoke when she was my age....and she didn't get mad. She wants me to quit obviously but she understands. So, today has been enlightening almost. I feel happy that I got everything off my chest about everything. My brother's fiance tried to take me out for a "girl's day out" to try and take my mind off things. We ended up just going shopping and then going for a coffee. It was alright....shopping is usually a good distraction for me. So ya....That's that.
Now I just need to find myself a good distraction for tonite. I've had a few offers from old friends wanting me to go to a bar but.....I dunno.....being around couples might be kinda awkward so we'll see....
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mct:
No need to ever worry about me ... I'm just glad you're still around 
andy_hallam:
