wow that was a fast 10 days.
Waking up this morning, the alarm went off (which is something I don't think I have actually heard for 10 days now)
After that first blast of the alarm, anxiety woke me more fully and much faster than the rest of the alarm did.
I didn't really make any new years resolutions this year. I feel such a massive change underway right now that any resolutions would seem totally pale in comparison to the changes that are under way for me here anyway.
I've spent the last 5 weeks feeling like a crash test dummy in a remote controlled test vehicle. The image I am actually seeing in my minds eye isn't a plastic manniquin head with the red tape and sensors though, I see me more in a clip of those air force training videos when the camera is trained on the pilot as he finally pulls enough G's to pass out. My head wobbling unconsciously as the jet careens uncontrollably to whereever it will stop.
The alarm going off this morning was my first hint that it didn't crash.
So I'm just blinking now, coffee machine is gurgling behind me, and in 2 hours I am going to be back at the office. We had some big things come up at the end of last year, and the last 4 days of work was rather full of fragmented energy being thrown at each of these big things in desparate attempts to hold them together long enough to last through the christmas break. Now, we will go back in with a deeper breath and attack again.
I think I am going to stop off at the old nutrition shop I used to manage when I get off work today. I'm going to pick up one of those 12 day herbal D-tox kits.
That's about the only sort of traditional new year thing I can think of that I will do this year. If I start today, I should be finishing the last day of it just in time to see Nina Hagen play here at the Commodore.
Waking up this morning, the alarm went off (which is something I don't think I have actually heard for 10 days now)
After that first blast of the alarm, anxiety woke me more fully and much faster than the rest of the alarm did.
I didn't really make any new years resolutions this year. I feel such a massive change underway right now that any resolutions would seem totally pale in comparison to the changes that are under way for me here anyway.
I've spent the last 5 weeks feeling like a crash test dummy in a remote controlled test vehicle. The image I am actually seeing in my minds eye isn't a plastic manniquin head with the red tape and sensors though, I see me more in a clip of those air force training videos when the camera is trained on the pilot as he finally pulls enough G's to pass out. My head wobbling unconsciously as the jet careens uncontrollably to whereever it will stop.
The alarm going off this morning was my first hint that it didn't crash.
So I'm just blinking now, coffee machine is gurgling behind me, and in 2 hours I am going to be back at the office. We had some big things come up at the end of last year, and the last 4 days of work was rather full of fragmented energy being thrown at each of these big things in desparate attempts to hold them together long enough to last through the christmas break. Now, we will go back in with a deeper breath and attack again.
I think I am going to stop off at the old nutrition shop I used to manage when I get off work today. I'm going to pick up one of those 12 day herbal D-tox kits.
That's about the only sort of traditional new year thing I can think of that I will do this year. If I start today, I should be finishing the last day of it just in time to see Nina Hagen play here at the Commodore.
Good luck with the cleansing.