I think I am going to leave my webcam on for the duration of this festive day. How exciting! You get to watch me roast that turkey that's been in my freezer now for the last 3 weeks!
I am going to run up to the store here now and get some brussels sprouts, some turnips, garlic, and see if I can find a christmas pudding somewhere. I would totally miss the finale of the flaming christmas pudding with the rum sauce.
Man this is going to be a lot of food for one guy. Maybe I can sell my leftovers on Ebay.
And on another "inside pica_pica" note, yes I am seeing this still as a very symbolic period for me. The entire month of December was the climactic peak of a rather shitty time with the whole R thing, and throughout those 3 weeks between then and now, this turkey has been in my freezer.
I personified myself into it's hard fetal coil and pictured some strange link between how I felt in my life right now, to being headless, handless and frozen in some dark cube.
But just like in my dream, where those religious people burnt the tree from last year as a symbolic sacrifice, I somehow see the same link to me finally pulling this turkey out of the freezer, defrosting it, and going through the whole preparation of the roasting process. A bit of an incubation, crysalis, something like that. I can feel what I mean, but I can't quite word it right now.
Then again, the fact that I am then going to eat it seems somehow strange, considering it's the me who I've been for the last month that I am about to roast.
If you eat yourself, is it still just cannibalism? Or is there some other way cooler word for it?
Anyways, I have 10 days off here now, and this is going to be a very long awaited and long needed period of purging transition for me.
I am SO looking forward to 2005, I think it's going to be a really good year.
Ok, off to the grocery store now. seeya inna bit.
Well, actually, You'll see me inna bit, on this here cam.
I am going to run up to the store here now and get some brussels sprouts, some turnips, garlic, and see if I can find a christmas pudding somewhere. I would totally miss the finale of the flaming christmas pudding with the rum sauce.
Man this is going to be a lot of food for one guy. Maybe I can sell my leftovers on Ebay.
And on another "inside pica_pica" note, yes I am seeing this still as a very symbolic period for me. The entire month of December was the climactic peak of a rather shitty time with the whole R thing, and throughout those 3 weeks between then and now, this turkey has been in my freezer.
I personified myself into it's hard fetal coil and pictured some strange link between how I felt in my life right now, to being headless, handless and frozen in some dark cube.
But just like in my dream, where those religious people burnt the tree from last year as a symbolic sacrifice, I somehow see the same link to me finally pulling this turkey out of the freezer, defrosting it, and going through the whole preparation of the roasting process. A bit of an incubation, crysalis, something like that. I can feel what I mean, but I can't quite word it right now.
Then again, the fact that I am then going to eat it seems somehow strange, considering it's the me who I've been for the last month that I am about to roast.
If you eat yourself, is it still just cannibalism? Or is there some other way cooler word for it?
Anyways, I have 10 days off here now, and this is going to be a very long awaited and long needed period of purging transition for me.
I am SO looking forward to 2005, I think it's going to be a really good year.
Ok, off to the grocery store now. seeya inna bit.
Well, actually, You'll see me inna bit, on this here cam.
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wottan:
Ive been pretty down this holiday too, but I try to look up with my family aroud me. Merry Christmas!