Well I was awakened from a sound sleep by my depression... I realized that because I was slowing down with my room that I was subconsciously thinking again. The was the month I dread every year. I can deal with just about any other time of the year but this month just throws everything at me. This month marks the time in my life that i tend to get the most self destructive. You see 10 years ago I met my ex-wife. 7 years ago I married my ex-wife, 4 years ago I lost my great aunt. The only person that truly thought I could do anything. 2 years ago my ex-wife tossed me out, 1 year ago the divorce was final. All during the month of November. So you see November is the worst month out of the year for me. If I could I would sleep it away in a coma. But instead I am taking to drinking. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out until December.
fallendita:
awwwww I really hope the rest of the month picks up for you and passes quickly into December, hopefully you can learn to associate November with positive things again, big hugs from me xxxx