Well things really haven't changed on the living situation. still not at 100% and house is filled with boxes.
On the personal lfe part I have decided I am a complete moron and I need to just give up. I am destined to grow old alone & unhappy. But I guess it's just something I have to live with. Depression has hit me pretty bad tonight and I have a feeling it isn't going anywhere. I figured that after yesterday it was coming but I have no way of warding it off. I used to be able to count on my camera to ward off my depression. it was the only thing that truly made me happy. Not I have nothing. My camera is out of commission until I get a new ens and that wont be until I can get a job.
My sister had asked me to take hr maternity pictures and I had to tell her I can't. She is being induced tomorrow and I feel like shit because I couldn't help her keep that memory because I am such a jack ass.
GAWD FML! I am going to bed.
On the personal lfe part I have decided I am a complete moron and I need to just give up. I am destined to grow old alone & unhappy. But I guess it's just something I have to live with. Depression has hit me pretty bad tonight and I have a feeling it isn't going anywhere. I figured that after yesterday it was coming but I have no way of warding it off. I used to be able to count on my camera to ward off my depression. it was the only thing that truly made me happy. Not I have nothing. My camera is out of commission until I get a new ens and that wont be until I can get a job.
My sister had asked me to take hr maternity pictures and I had to tell her I can't. She is being induced tomorrow and I feel like shit because I couldn't help her keep that memory because I am such a jack ass.
GAWD FML! I am going to bed.
heathen:
Im around if you need someone to talk to. You are a good friend and I'm sure your sister understands about the lens.
mustangbeauty:
Just many tough things in a row hun, it will get better. And there is someone for everyone out there. Usually you find them when you are least expecting. Keep your chin up! all will be ok.