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Friday Feb 17, 2006

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I've been thinking seriously about stilling my parents car. I told my mom I was molested when I was a kid and sexually harrassed none stop my senior year. The only time I don't think about it is if I'm concentrating on the road or doing photography.Unfortunately, Photography hasn't been doing it lately, since I'm kind of in a dry spell. She doesn't care. And it's really annoying that I confided in her like that and she doesn't care. So I've been thinking, since they won't let me drive, why not just take the car.

Well I was really bored today so I took some pictures. I figured since I've been in a rut that taking pictures of ANYTHING might help me out, and get me back on track.
















I was so bored, and I still am! I need something to do. I need a car. I need to start school! I need a change, something other than this.

I dunno why but everything is starting to lose it's flavor. I hate sitting around thinking about the past and all the stuff that's happened that I never did anything about.

I should just leave Oakland and move some where. I dunno if I should even focus on school, maybe just move somewhere, find a job, then go to school in spring.
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towelb0y:
stick with what you enjoy and if you are going to go back to school, make sure it's relative. Theres nothing worse than spending 2-4 years in college only to find out you have no interest in persuing a career in your major. Trust me. Kinda cliche'd advice but hey it's the truth. And as far as moving...I think theres alot to Oakland that many people outside don't know about. One of the things I want to do as a photographer is showcase the finer points of Oakland to the rest of the world, so people will have something other than our crime rate to focus on. Think about that.
Feb 17, 2006
iseult:
Your photos are great: I think you're very talented! smile

I'm sorry to hear about your Mum's attitude, but perhaps her lack of response is down to her inability to face the reality of what happened to you, rather than apathy. One of my closest friends got a similar reaction from his parents when he told them that he had be abused as a child, but it transpired that they desperately didn't want to acknowledge the truth because it's the worst thing in the world that could happen to your child.

They felt that they must have failed to protect him, (which, after all is the primary purpose of a parent) and truly didn't want it to be so. Even if this is the case, I know it doesn't make it any better for you, after all, you were the one who had to live through it, not them; but maybe consider the possibility that her attitude comes from her own fears and denial, rather than a lack of compassion.
Feb 17, 2006

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