Shit
Shit
Shit...
My head is a mess.
I went away for three days and didn't even call my boyfriend. What kind of an asshole am I?
I don't even have a reason to do these things to him. I have to stop.
An asshole who got to thinking. Thinking about all the sacrifices that guy has made for me- and what an ungrateful brat I've been.
This probably won't make much sense:
I think I'm going to go back to Ontario.
After nearly four years of repeatedly hurting his feelings, not appreciating him as much as maybe I should have and making him catrer to my every whim, I am about to irreparably break my boyfriends heart.
I don't deserve him, he doesn't deserve someone as crazy and reckless as I am- he deserves to be loved and nurtured with eevry fiber of the othe rperson in the relationship- not messed around.
This isn't what I want, but I think I have to do it, for his sanity and for me to make the transition into being an adult and learning a little lesson about sacrificing your own happiness to make the people you love happy.
This is going to hurt so fucking much.
He's going to hate me.
He'll be in good company:
I hate myself.
Shit
Shit...
My head is a mess.
I went away for three days and didn't even call my boyfriend. What kind of an asshole am I?
I don't even have a reason to do these things to him. I have to stop.
An asshole who got to thinking. Thinking about all the sacrifices that guy has made for me- and what an ungrateful brat I've been.
This probably won't make much sense:
I think I'm going to go back to Ontario.
After nearly four years of repeatedly hurting his feelings, not appreciating him as much as maybe I should have and making him catrer to my every whim, I am about to irreparably break my boyfriends heart.
I don't deserve him, he doesn't deserve someone as crazy and reckless as I am- he deserves to be loved and nurtured with eevry fiber of the othe rperson in the relationship- not messed around.
This isn't what I want, but I think I have to do it, for his sanity and for me to make the transition into being an adult and learning a little lesson about sacrificing your own happiness to make the people you love happy.
This is going to hurt so fucking much.
He's going to hate me.
He'll be in good company:
I hate myself.
clara:
Please don't decide this hastily. It's much harder to fix afterward. Good luck.
drnecessitor:
I've only ever been the break-ee in these situations, never the break-er. It's hard, there's no way around that. He will be hurt, but he won't hate you. Try not to beat yourself up.... 