UGH!!! i hate being a woman.... I'm feeling emotional, irrated, and like i wanna cry.. and im not even pmsing yet.
My boyfriend has just effin rubbed me raw today. Like he was helping his dad all day today, which i thought was only gonna take a hour or two. Like, i was waiting around for him all day, and that's when i realized, i put my life on hold for him. I shouldn't be doing that.
And.... He wants to go out and party tonight, but im sick. and i normally stay with him on the weekends, and since im sick i cant really party, so i would be left at home while he parties.... Then he mentioned going to the vfw, which is like this man club thing, which is cool, but the last time we went there was nothing for me to do and i just sat there bored. It's like we always have to do what he wants to do... and that aggrivates the hell outta me! I don't ask much of him at all. all i want is for him to do something sweet for me everyonce in a while, like romanitc. I dunno.... sorry guys, im really venting here, but its either get it out here, or blow up on him later....
And like I have given up so much for him. Like I got kicked out of my parents house, went to go live in Cali with my dad that I have never had a relationship with, then left to come back to my boyfriend. So i gave up a chance of picking things up with my dad for him, which is something that i have never wanted more. I dont really have any of my friends anymore, like all his friends are my friends, which is ok, but i need my friends to so i can have some time away. And, we are talking about moving once i get my three classes in that i need for school. He was talking about Georgia, which he has family in, and i dont. Therefore i would be left with nothing.... Ugh... i dont know.
I know your probably thinking i should leave, but that doesn't even seem like an option for me, like we have been together for almost a year, which is my longest relationship, and he can be such a sweetheart, and he doesn't disrespect me like all my other bf's and i feel like i can honestly trust him not to cheat on me, which is a really big thing for me to be able to say cause all my bf's have cheated and it has left me torn up. i dunno.....
Any thoughts guys? suggestions? any kind of input.....
My boyfriend has just effin rubbed me raw today. Like he was helping his dad all day today, which i thought was only gonna take a hour or two. Like, i was waiting around for him all day, and that's when i realized, i put my life on hold for him. I shouldn't be doing that.
And.... He wants to go out and party tonight, but im sick. and i normally stay with him on the weekends, and since im sick i cant really party, so i would be left at home while he parties.... Then he mentioned going to the vfw, which is like this man club thing, which is cool, but the last time we went there was nothing for me to do and i just sat there bored. It's like we always have to do what he wants to do... and that aggrivates the hell outta me! I don't ask much of him at all. all i want is for him to do something sweet for me everyonce in a while, like romanitc. I dunno.... sorry guys, im really venting here, but its either get it out here, or blow up on him later....
And like I have given up so much for him. Like I got kicked out of my parents house, went to go live in Cali with my dad that I have never had a relationship with, then left to come back to my boyfriend. So i gave up a chance of picking things up with my dad for him, which is something that i have never wanted more. I dont really have any of my friends anymore, like all his friends are my friends, which is ok, but i need my friends to so i can have some time away. And, we are talking about moving once i get my three classes in that i need for school. He was talking about Georgia, which he has family in, and i dont. Therefore i would be left with nothing.... Ugh... i dont know.
I know your probably thinking i should leave, but that doesn't even seem like an option for me, like we have been together for almost a year, which is my longest relationship, and he can be such a sweetheart, and he doesn't disrespect me like all my other bf's and i feel like i can honestly trust him not to cheat on me, which is a really big thing for me to be able to say cause all my bf's have cheated and it has left me torn up. i dunno.....
Any thoughts guys? suggestions? any kind of input.....
Also, hi. I'm from the 'burg.