phoenixarsonus

Its over. I didnt think it could have been any harder. I have never in my life experienced anything like what i just did. I dont understand what happened to us, or why i act the way i do. I blame myself for everything, and i cant help but feel shitty, even though we both hurt eachother so much. I guess we were just never meant to be. I hope someday she can find someone else who is better than me. I also hope i can find someone too, but not before making some serious changes to my life. I need help, but I am not the type of person who can easily ask for it. I have always been a loner, and have done just fine up until now. I just cant help but wonder if i will ever really be happy, or even satisfied. I just dont really know anymore. Sorry for being such a downer, but i needed to do something to get it off my chest.