phixo

I never want to grow up.
I'm recently feeling like a child again, filled with so much curiosity and desire to see, touch and smell everything. I want to meet new people and know what they think about the most random things. That is connected with my artistic and expressive side, I feel the need to capture bits of life in my camera, on the paper, in the colors, words, movements. It's almost ridiculous how much meaning I find in everything everyone says to me. But the other side of me is very shy, nervous, mistrusting. When I've had to do some journalistic work I'm sometimes so afraid to approach people, afraid to invade their private space, I get paralyzed. I'm so diffident I've never even learned how to drive a car. I don't get how those two characteristics compute. But I'm working on myself. I really want to go abroad. I decided to strive for a scholarship to study in London next year.

I've been in different places in Estonia recently, taking time off and (over)thinking.








My father looks like a mobster and acts like a kid.


My little brother is all grown up.




And me.