its one of those moments where i really kinda feel like writing a LOT but i'm exhausted and can't convince myself to just go to bed.
things are kinda crazy. I had a shit week that involved plenty of regressing to old, bad habits and not meeting a lot of my goals and all in all feeling like utter crap about myself.
Thank GOD i go to therapy. I had a really intense session that lasted 3 hours. but holy shit is that good for the soul.
The reality of life is terrifying me. I'm graduating school in september... my lease is up in november and my landlord expects to know by next month if i want to renew. Finding this cat has put my financial situation totally off the delicate balance i THOUGHT i had. And i'm still not in a band..
So i got scared... And i kinda did what any fool does when they get scared. I hid. I hid in my apartment and delved into a virtual world of video games for what must have been 30+ hours over like 4 days. I felt like shit about myself the whole time but its this self-destructive cycle that's REALLY hard to pull out of when i have so many things to be anxious about.. I'm just glad i realized what the hell was going on.
it's a good thing i never tried heroin.
things are kinda crazy. I had a shit week that involved plenty of regressing to old, bad habits and not meeting a lot of my goals and all in all feeling like utter crap about myself.
Thank GOD i go to therapy. I had a really intense session that lasted 3 hours. but holy shit is that good for the soul.
The reality of life is terrifying me. I'm graduating school in september... my lease is up in november and my landlord expects to know by next month if i want to renew. Finding this cat has put my financial situation totally off the delicate balance i THOUGHT i had. And i'm still not in a band..
So i got scared... And i kinda did what any fool does when they get scared. I hid. I hid in my apartment and delved into a virtual world of video games for what must have been 30+ hours over like 4 days. I felt like shit about myself the whole time but its this self-destructive cycle that's REALLY hard to pull out of when i have so many things to be anxious about.. I'm just glad i realized what the hell was going on.
it's a good thing i never tried heroin.
And no you havn't been talking about yourself too much. At least you're interesting! haha. I, on the other hand, dont have much to say because I am always working or studying (or baking ) and I don't want to bore you too much but my names Morgan I live in Wellington, NZ. I was working as a graphic designer for a few years before I moved here to study Advertising design and I love it! I still work as a graphic designer when Im not at school and I freelance for a few other companies around the country as well so lifes busy busy busy
I have one cat - I had two but one had to be put to sleep at the beginning of the year because I think a car ran over her tail and it pulled it away from her spine. Anyway, I was looking after her for weeks before I eventually agreed to put her to sleep - and a $800 vet bill to top that off! cats are expensive
So I'm sorry you've had a shit week though! Cheer up Oh and I bet you will find a band soon Life has a funny way of working out Anyway I should go do something productive like homework now!!
Its nice to meet you btw Dan