Thank you, thank you for the comment you left on my blog. Ya, it might have been a bit ago, but it was real, well, nice. I am happy with me, and sometimes it does take a stranger to amke you see that. So thank you.
And happy christmas, hope you're having an awesome day.
ffx: rikku. actually i identify a lot with that character. moreso than any other final fantasy character in the games that i've played - she's spunky, cheerful, outgoing, loyal and tough... qualities i like to think i have!
i haven't seen red vs blue but i have heard of it. not sure what it is though.
i leave australia on the 20th january... super soon but still so far away.
"You're lucky that you can go away from home for so long and be ok with it. I'm so insecure i'd eventually have a break down or something..."
not so lucky - it was really hard and still is really hard, but it's a constant process of self exploration. i HAVE had a couple breakdowns, or at least sob-fests locked in hostel bathrooms... it can be really tough at times... and often, i feel like i've made a huge and rash mistake leaving when i did, for a number of reasons. but because of that i have learned so much. not being ready but throwing yourself in anyway leaves huge potential for learning.
"I'm usually coming up with ideas or want to do things but i'm always scared away from doing them. I'm so.. i dunno. I'm always terrified of the what ifs, and more often than that, they're just about what people will think or say or do."
i really hope this is something you can teach yourself to defeat. even if those doubts always nag at you, it is such a limitation. nothing facilitates regret so much as worrying too much about the what ifs and about other people. i know it! i struggle with this sometimes too... but for me, the cure is just to be impulsive and throw myself into things.
And happy christmas, hope you're having an awesome day.
i haven't seen red vs blue but i have heard of it. not sure what it is though.
i leave australia on the 20th january... super soon but still so far away.
"You're lucky that you can go away from home for so long and be ok with it. I'm so insecure i'd eventually have a break down or something..."
not so lucky - it was really hard and still is really hard, but it's a constant process of self exploration. i HAVE had a couple breakdowns, or at least sob-fests locked in hostel bathrooms... it can be really tough at times... and often, i feel like i've made a huge and rash mistake leaving when i did, for a number of reasons. but because of that i have learned so much. not being ready but throwing yourself in anyway leaves huge potential for learning.
"I'm usually coming up with ideas or want to do things but i'm always scared away from doing them. I'm so.. i dunno. I'm always terrified of the what ifs, and more often than that, they're just about what people will think or say or do."
i really hope this is something you can teach yourself to defeat. even if those doubts always nag at you, it is such a limitation. nothing facilitates regret so much as worrying too much about the what ifs and about other people. i know it! i struggle with this sometimes too... but for me, the cure is just to be impulsive and throw myself into things.