You may not celebrate the holidays, but we have less than a month of 2020 to go, that's surely worth celebrating, right?!
This year has been a roller-coaster.
In January I became an official SG - I was so excited for the future prospects of shoots, travelling back to LA, many opportunities that might arise - my dream of becoming a Suicide Girl had come true!
Then the dreaded pandemic came about and arranging shoots became even more impossible, I caught covid in March and struggled while continuing to work, but I managed (and even did a self-shot set!). I felt better in April, but work continued to decline due to mass job losses and businesses shutting down.
My birthday came and went in July, I did a live stream on twitch and SG - that really lifted my spirits! I was so overwhelmed by the love and support from people there, it really made me realise I am loved ❤️
Summer was quickly over, then Halloween came and went, and my sister's fiancé got sick. He caught covid, after being safe for many months, and really struggled, fighting for his life in hospital after also contracting pneumonia and a clot on his lung. We were so worried we would lose him. I couldn't focus properly. I struggled with work and lost my motivation to do anything. My sister and her daughter also contracted covid but have since recovered and didn't get it half as bad.
Now as a new year approaches, my sister's fiancé is out of hospital and doing better / improving every day, though he'll be left with lasting damage to his lungs and internal organs, he'll be off work for at least 3-4 months, but he is still with us. That is more than we could ask for.
Hopefully that explains my periods of sporadic absence during the year. One thing, though, has stayed constant. Your support. Your love. Your positivity to get me through all of this. And I really want to thank you for that. We have all struggled in some way this year and we must remember that we have each other. Through the good times and the bad. I honestly love you guys so damn much 💖
After the many ups and downs of 2020, it really puts things into perspective. Let's look forward positively to the coming months, hang in there and keep looking out for the ones we love. For this life isn't forever, but it is truly precious. ❤️
@missy @rambo @sean
