Well, it has been 24 hours. I've tried to write this a thousand times. I have so much to say but am still so overwhelmed by your love and support right now so apologies if this is all jumbled! I've established that I am in fact not dreaming, I am.. officially... a Suicide Girl. I'm a Suicide Girl. Me?! I don't think I'll ever get used to saying that. I am elated. Special shout out to @leemalee who shot my soon to be SOTD! She is so close to staff it's unreal - please send this babe your positive vibes!
Firstly and most importantly, thank you, each and every single one of you! You got me this far, I could not have done it alone. I've said it before but I've felt an incredible amount of love and support lately, like, INSANE amounts I've never felt before. I am truly grateful and I feel like I have a purpose in this community. I feel like I'm worth something for the first time in my life and that my kindness has been rewarded, not taken advantage of like it had been in the past. I can't ever thank you enough for that. <3
Remember that blog I posted, Dont give up on your dreams? Well I didn't. And I was willing to keep on going even if it took me 7+ years like some of our greatest SGs. But I knew it wouldn't always be easy. If you're a hopeful and you're feeling a little defeated, or that the road is a challenge, please do read that blog. And if you're still at a loss, please reach out to me for some friendly advice - I will always try to help and encourage others to reach their goals in any way I can. I want to help. I want to make others feel better about themselves. This road hasn't been easy for me at all but I definitely thought I had a much longer way to go for a chance at being pink. If your road seems longer, just keep focused and keep going. All roads are different. It will come as long as you don't give up. Think about what you can do better, or more/less of to make an impact. Again, if you need ideas or advice, I can tell you what I've learnt at least!
And I'm not stopping there!!! My promise to you was that I'm not going anywhere, in fact barely anything changes here except the fact I reached what I thought would be an almost impossible milestone and one of my dreams came true. I am mindful not to let it change me as a person, I am mindful to stay grounded. I'm going to continue showing my love and support to you guys for as long as I can physically can!
Thank you for believing in me! <3
I will do more live streams over the coming days and am due to go on the SG snapchat too so catch me on there!
Now I don't actually want to make this all about me - I want to share with you some of the babes that have inspired me along the way and/or really deserve to be pink by this point. There are actually so many that I have to save some for another blog. Please go and show them all the love they truly deserve. Blog about them, share them on thread comments, get these hopefuls noticed. Every little bit of support helps! I will be sharing even more hopefuls very soon!
@Tommy - my girl has had a hard time lately and you may have seen her blog post on FP today about potentially quitting modelling for good. I truly believe that if this babe were to go pink right now, it would give her the sign she is looking for. I know she would put her heart and soul into this and continue giving it all she's got, but she just needs a sign to show how much she is worth. And believe me, she is truly deserving on this. She is the sweetest, most supportive babe and really doesn't realise how amazing she is. <3
@Gnomi - this babe has worked her ass off for YEARS. She has been so supportive of me and literally everyone else, I can't understand why she hasn't been made pink yet! Please give @gnomi all your love. She has also been going through a hard time right now and it would be nice to show her that she is thoroughly appreciated <3
@spicedsoychai - I mean, 3794 likes on her debut set - that is truly insane! This babe really needs your love and I know she will be pink any day now, but we still need to push for it <3
@Paigerose - my babe! Paige has been there through my darkest times and is one of my SG Besties! Please go give her some love - she also JUST had a set released with @leemalee! <3
@Heatherrann - I absolutely adore this babe. She is full of positive vibes and has such a gift of being able to talk to anyone and everyone! <3
@Ladykitsune - such a sweet babe, she has worked hard to get this far and I cannot believe she is still a hopeful, please give her some love! <3
@Syrinn - this Scottish babe needs more love - what are you waiting for?! <3
@Lecherylady - we have only met more recently but this babe is full of love and support!!! Please show her the love she deserves! <3
@MissJcristina - one of the most supportive women I know, JCristina is worthy of all the love and I would love to see her pink. We had such a great time together recently too, did you see the footage?! <3
@naru_blu - another babe that screams pink! Can we make this happen?
@Kaydie - ANOTHER babe I cannot believe isn't pink yet. How?! Please go give her your love! <3
@Ladyfirefox - we both started this journey at the same time, so I am rooting for this babe! Please go give her your love <3
@Chroi - such a sweet supportive babe and always interacting on here! Let Chroi know we love her, she deserves to be pink <3
@Nevergoodbye - another supportive babe who I am so grateful for!!! I can't wait to see more from this babe and would love you to go show her some love. Pink! <3
@Boowho - This babe is so lovely and warm hearted, she brightens my day with her words of support and has some really pretty sets out - please go show her some love! I'd love to see her pink this year <3
@Nolajean - I still can't believe this babe isn't pink yet. She is stunning and really deserves it! Please help her become pink asap! <3
@Evierees - my WCW, need I say more?!!! Please go show this babe some love! <3
Special shout out to @olgakulaga who also turned pink earlier this week. Fully deserving after all the hard work she put in and I couldn't be happier for her! <3
Now to get back to my messages and notifications - you guys have kept me so busy lately and I'm in awe!
All my love,
Phianixx Suicide 🤭
@missy @rambo @sean @eirenne
