pheme

He's a shit but here's the thing...
For four years he was the first thing I though about in the morning & the last thing I thought about before I fell asleep and he still is.
I wish I could just turn it off & make it stop but I can't.
Some hours pass by just fine and some drag so slowly.

I really hurt and I feel so stupid and so humiliated.
I wish he didn't have that power of me but he does right now.
I need time.
I need strength.

I need to step believing in my heart that I need him.

Time