phedre

Well, I'm leaving tomorrow morning fairly early. I'll be gone for two weeks and don't know how much net access I'll have. So if I'm MIA, you know what's up. Today was horribly sad for me. My ex came by to see me, but only for like 30 minutes. And you can tell he doesn't trust himself to get too close to me. It's awful. I really wish he'd just let himself go. It'd be easier on her and I, and on his new girlfriend. I keep hoping for that to happen, but he's not easing up. I'm gonna have to get him to take some x or something, and then he'll finally understand the power of touch, and maybe that revelation will stay with him after it wears off. I'm not trying to get him back, I just wanna be held. *sigh* So hard to understand?

It's gonna be hard to be gone for two weeks. I'd probably come back earlier if I could. But I don't think I can. It will be fun, and good. But at the same time, it will be really sad. I don't like being away from home for long periods of time, even to go to my hometown, lol.

So until I can come back, I wish you all the best. Have wonderful days, and even better nights