phedra

Do you see now what your words did?
the distorted mocking of a sick person
you unleash what makes you,claims you
see it try to overwhelm another soul
a parasite looking to feed
Looking back I never knew this disease
this horror that would invade my life, my soul
I never knew it would come from someone I loved, trusted
it makes tears come to my eyes when I look at you
Seeing pictures of a time passed
when innocence still glittered from my voice
my already broken heart shatters
till I can never find myself in this void
just remember, I never asked for this,
I never wanted this
I curse the day when you took everything away
Your screaming and yelling puntures holes still
I don't understand why or how to react
where did these tears come from?
doesn't matter, you did your damage, plus more, I no longer care
Rip yourself apart you parnoid freak
fucking hide in your room and never come out
die the way you think you should-alone afraid, and in the dark
wondering why everyone left you
just rot in your hell and die smelling your own shit...



I had a bad day...lol, today things are fucked, and it is hard to even keep my head up, my eyes open. It has been happening more often than I would like to admit. I hide it behind sarcasm, false smiles,and swallowed sobs.But hey another day will come when it is better, right?

Hope to see you on that good day.. , till then farewell

Adri