phaseish

my long awaited (Not really Blog is here) So!...........

After a while here it's hard to answer messages hahah and keep up with so I def wanna give a Kudos to all you girls that have creepers and non sending you them cause it's fucking impossible to keep up with 9 I could imagine 50.with that sad the hopefuls have been pretty good for the last week or so seems like there is going to be some heavy competition A lot of cute girls with Good photog's one that come to mine is Georjah.I am also really glad Michaelangela Turned pink 2.

Anywho.work was awesome for these past two months because of the NFL sunday ticket offer but that is now over pretty much football season has started the hype is gone and its back to the most garbage fucking call mixes ever.I have been there almost a year so its time to pack it up and get the fuck out and a year of sales experience with a big ass company like Directv is def a good one under my belt.

I really need to get back to my career job which was recording fucking music.I feel cause of what happened with my internship and assisting gig I am jaded from and really can't maintain going back to it in this city.which really sucks because my next objective on my life to do list is completely fucked and confusing.I drank for like the first time in 3 or 4 years and I was sad by like 4th or 5th beer I mean even though I was happy to cause I was with someone who I am fucking in love with right now i know that route will become the death of me I was about to buy a bottle of jack actually for my Numbness feeling I hate life sometimes.It's so much easier to put a gun to your skull sometimes.I don't know how some people make it out alive this bitch.

Which brings me to my love problem from my previously blog.

This chick and I decided its best not to try to persue anything cause at the moment we started talking again the wrong place at the wrong time came and now she is in school doing like 35-45 hours a week + studying so fuck it I guess you live and you learn.,It wasn't a very good closure session but it is what it is.Which brings me to a good part in my life which is that I had a crush on this girl @ work for like 7-8 Months and I always heard around she thought I was hot so anyways I waved at her one day and she didn't do it anything.:whatever
:Sad panda: Anyways I found out she is shy or something (Which isn't even the case) Anyways a co-worker introduced us and its been sparks and amazingness ever since this passed week she quit and she is all jaded like I am she even wanted us to stop talking cause she said it was going way to fast with feelings and emotions.Safe to say we have been talking ever since and I am really fucking scared because I feel something that I haven't felt since like 2 years prior with this other chick. I finally think its time to let my guard down and just let someone in so I can be swept off my feet or flat on my face and listen to taking back sunnday all day. haha. I used to live by that slug line (Atmosphere) as much as I would love to run and play in the forest ain't no way that this girl is going to break into my fortress. That is not the case with this one. I also had fucked like 5 girls last month it was intense a pussy overdose so I have decided! I am not fucking this girl I like until we figure where we would live as a couple before a sex and fucking buddy.
That's how shit gets confusing Baby steps! with this one. I just feel like head over heels and I hate that feeling because I feel vunerable and if it doesn't work out then I am going to be fucking pissed and more jaded especially if it's something stupid like she fucks someone or was talking to someone else. I would be cool with just isn't attracted to me but right now this chick and have this common bond.3 weeks and counting we will see how it goes.

ANYWAYS PICTURE DUMP!!!!:


I did dye my hair black.






My best friend left to me go to Japan to finish learning the language. 14 YEARS of friendship.





I Flew over this play thing from TX because my paid time off from work was going to expire so why the fuck not.Then I met this chick from work and really started talking in the process and Just wanted to be with her kind of sucked but still a cool experience.











I wanted to buy this jacket at XXI but the! Sleeves were cotton gross.





A grateful dead. omg




If you can't sleep! because your shift or because you are a vampire
everyone needs to invest in these. I wish I had this for the jeezy sessions that
motherfucker works till like 1:00 P.M the next day.



EVERY 10 fucking seconds I get bit by a mosquito in miami at night it sucks
they want so much of my blood.




Girl on the left currently the girl that is sweeping under. She even listens to
Dream theater I almost fucking got on one knee.



got my maltese groomed he is pimping. need to Neuter his ass.
or balls I should say hahaha.they give the cutest bandannas.






My black has faded I need to get ir redone. I really love those
original gourmet lollipops so much Pacino was about to blow my mind.








My job changed the dress code to that shit pisses me off I hate dressing like this.



STEAK AND SHAKE!




and the one dick pic before I go.



I really like the position of my feet hahah I am so gay sometimes. I wish I can do porn! why Can't i have a bigger dick damit!

XOXO SG PSFB! ALLDAY



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