finally back in action. if there is a hell, it must not have cable OR net. being seperated from both for 25 days was horrible.
my heads sick again, which isnt anything new. what was new tho was the aggression it came back with. usually in these "remissions" or "episodes" this illness has been a lot more passive, just a whisper. last night tho i had to really fight to keep in control. such aggressive attacks arent uncommon, if theyre short lived, but last nights must have lasted for hours. it felt like it, but i had bigger concerns than keeping track of time. its refreshing knowing im still well enough to not give in. i hope i dont need meds. ive always refused them (other than little depressants for adhd) because i dont want them warping my mind. ive always been pretty stable.
schools been going well. i had my first test on friday (in calculas :shudder) and think i did surprisingly well. i wont know for sure until friday tho when we get them back. also theres this cute girl in 3 of my classes AND all 3 of my labs. i even sit beside her in one. for anyone else this would be cool, if those anyone elses werent schizoid too. as such im pretty sure nothing will come of this. ive met a couple nice guys too, ones im indiferent to be in the company of. i dont think i thought anything negative when ran into each of them recently. i dont meet many people like that. my physics lab partner ISNT one of those few. that guy annoys me.
2 weeks until my jaw gets cut open again.
my heads sick again, which isnt anything new. what was new tho was the aggression it came back with. usually in these "remissions" or "episodes" this illness has been a lot more passive, just a whisper. last night tho i had to really fight to keep in control. such aggressive attacks arent uncommon, if theyre short lived, but last nights must have lasted for hours. it felt like it, but i had bigger concerns than keeping track of time. its refreshing knowing im still well enough to not give in. i hope i dont need meds. ive always refused them (other than little depressants for adhd) because i dont want them warping my mind. ive always been pretty stable.
schools been going well. i had my first test on friday (in calculas :shudder) and think i did surprisingly well. i wont know for sure until friday tho when we get them back. also theres this cute girl in 3 of my classes AND all 3 of my labs. i even sit beside her in one. for anyone else this would be cool, if those anyone elses werent schizoid too. as such im pretty sure nothing will come of this. ive met a couple nice guys too, ones im indiferent to be in the company of. i dont think i thought anything negative when ran into each of them recently. i dont meet many people like that. my physics lab partner ISNT one of those few. that guy annoys me.
2 weeks until my jaw gets cut open again.
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i'm a pretty big all that remains fan, this was my second time seeing them. howard from killswitch came out and did a couple screams with them, it was awesome.
Savage has died down lots, and is not open on Thursdays
Considering I work weekends, I can never make it out there. So in the instance of my journal entry, I was speaking about Velvet Underground.