phantomvi

So this evening I got some information about some people who have been very close to me... Information that if I had been in a less-stable state of mind would have left me crying and shaking on the floor, curled up in a fetal position, where I would have remained for days, not eating, drinking, or speaking, finally succumbing to marasmus like a baby chimp when they take his mother away. Or conversely, it would have driven me naked into the wilderness, raging and screaming, where I would eat nothing but locusts and wild honey until the end of my days.
Obviously, neither happened...As I said, I'm in a more-or-less stable state of mind right now....
But then I got to thinking: Why am I like this right now? I mean, the circumstances of my life right now bear a great resemblance to other times when I've been far more emotionally fragile...there's really nothing going on that puts me in a better place now as opposed to then...in fact, quite a few situations now make things a bit worse...
Then I realized: there's a very good chance that I am just barely holding on by a thread...

Hmmmm....
This could get interesting....