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phantomvi

i will never see it again

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Saturday Jun 18, 2005

Jun 18, 2005
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So here I am, spending a Saturday night with lots of coffee and SG...and then shit just starts falling apart.
Damn ducts.

So for now I will just sit here and miss someone and wait for the rest of my apartment to come crashing down on my head...
...while listening to Robert Wyatt:


Given free will but within certain limitations,
I cannot will myself to limitless mutations,
I cannot know what I would be if I were not me,
I can only guess me.

So when I say that I know me, how can I know that?
What kind of spider understands arachnophobia?
I have my senses and my sense of having senses.
Do I guide them? Or they me?

The weight of dust exceeds the weight of settled objects.
What can it mean, such gravity without a centre?
Is there freedom to un-be?
Is there freedom from will-to-be?

Sheer momentum makes us act this way or that way.
We just invent or just assume a motivation.
I would disperse, be disconnected. Is this possible?
What are soldiers without a foe?

Be in the air, but not be air, be in the no air.
Be on the loose, neither compacted nor suspended.
Neither born nor left to die.

Had I been free, I could have chosen not to be me.
Demented forces push me madly round a treadmill.
Demented forces push me madly round a treadmill.
Let me off please, I am so tired.
Let me off please, I am so very tired.


Meanwhile, the kitties sleep...


Update 06/21: I might be unemployed! They decided on a whim to shut down my lab for the rest of the summer! Neat-O! Like I wasn't broke enough! Like I don't have past-due bills!
Fuck it. I'm going to FamousMortimer's house and drinking tequila.

Another Update 06/23: So my friend Chris had a film in a St Louis film festival, the $* Hour Film Project, and won the prizes of Best Film and Best Director. He and my other friend named Chirs also cowrote it...Anyway, its online now, and its quite funny, so all of you should go HERE and watch it right now!!!!
And for more of your viewing pleasure, here's me and the two Chrises from last year's Fourth of July:

They're so cuuute....
VIEW 15 of 15 COMMENTS
hollygolightly:
Hey there,
long time no see... i hired my elvis suit, have you got your dress yet?
Jun 28, 2005
hollygolightly:
that really depends on whether you consider yourself pure? or a virgin? or some crap along those lines... eeek
Jun 28, 2005

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