phantomshadow

Hello my SG friends, well at least I think I have some friends on here. I mean I think I have done a lot to support some people on here, but yet I feel like I keep getting the cold shoulder, oh well, right? I mean whats so different from some people on here taking my money from the ones on theses dating sites taking my money, I guess it is true of what my sister says about me being so gullible when it comes to women. I guess I am the dumbest man in the world for trying to trust anyone, mostly women. maybe I should go back to being the asshole I use to be, maybe that way I won't have so many women taking advantage of me and my so called gullible kindness. Just the other day I was out at my sister's work and I had sat with some of her and my friends, I ordered my self a pizza, and I offered everyone at the table if they would like some, just sitting there eating and all I hear is he is such a sweetheart, he is such a nice guy, and all the other crappy statements, I turned to them and said that I really hate that, don't get me wrong, it was nice of them to say those things, but its also those same statements that makes me such a gullible sucker to get played by everyone. maybe I should just lock my self in my house and become a hermit, or maybe I should just leave this pathetic world I live in, but I can't really be that selfish to do that either, because I would end up hurting the two people who actually love me. I really wish that my mother would be here so that I can hear those words (everything will be okay) she use to tell me. I try to put it in my head, but its just not the same hearing them from her lips. I really hate my self for trying to be me some times because I always get hurt for doing something nice for some one and then turn around and get fucked over for doing it, but oh well, right? really don't know what else to do any more and really starting not to care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!