My ability to fail, even when I make every effort to succeed, is astounding.
What can I do but try again?! Argh! I really feel now, so much more than ever, I want to be someone else somewhere but I know that line of thinking to be a waste. "If only" excuses only blind us to the experiences and opportunities in front of us but their so tempting when we fail or we're lonely.
Maybe especially when we're lonely. I've got to realize I can't make it on my own anymore. I need help myself. I'm having a hard time coping with the stress of trying to help others who are in need of help and in much worse situations than a lot of us, hopefully, may never experience. But yeah, I've decided I need counselling. Before I can continue to move forward, I need to release myself from the chains of my past. I need to work through my frustrations of not being able to change a flawed system where it do desperately needs fixing. Like a mechanic held hostage by a circus while the ring leader lets monkeys go crazy on cars already in need of repair! But I'm in danger of ranting so I'll stop here.
I want and need help I'm going to get it and let's hope I'm successful in that endevour at least or my blogs will soon become the rants of the insane!
What can I do but try again?! Argh! I really feel now, so much more than ever, I want to be someone else somewhere but I know that line of thinking to be a waste. "If only" excuses only blind us to the experiences and opportunities in front of us but their so tempting when we fail or we're lonely.
Maybe especially when we're lonely. I've got to realize I can't make it on my own anymore. I need help myself. I'm having a hard time coping with the stress of trying to help others who are in need of help and in much worse situations than a lot of us, hopefully, may never experience. But yeah, I've decided I need counselling. Before I can continue to move forward, I need to release myself from the chains of my past. I need to work through my frustrations of not being able to change a flawed system where it do desperately needs fixing. Like a mechanic held hostage by a circus while the ring leader lets monkeys go crazy on cars already in need of repair! But I'm in danger of ranting so I'll stop here.
I want and need help I'm going to get it and let's hope I'm successful in that endevour at least or my blogs will soon become the rants of the insane!
I hope it will give you something and am glad to hear your willing to at least give it a shot, too many people never do.